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Fergus Edwards reviews Astraea by Kate Kriumink

Astraea

by Kate Kruimink

Weatherglass Books

ISBN: 9781739570767

Reviewed by FERGUS EDWARDS

 

Astraea is set on board a ship transporting female convicts from England in the early 1800s. We do not see them depart, and we will not see them arrive: they will never be on solid ground. The crew is entirely male, the cargo entirely female, and we share the anxious bemusement of the fifteen-year-old convict Maryanne Maginn as she and her ‘maybe-friend Sarah Ward’ (p.9) negotiate existence inside ‘a series of confines between which she might move but not escape’ (p.44). The two of them join a group of women who might be prostitutes, madwomen, and witches aboard the fictional Astraea: named after an immortal virgin from Greek mythology, the near homophone is surely not accidental. The novella shows us individual and collective persistence in the face of barely constrained institutionalized and systemic violence, and Kate Kruimink ensures that it is the women, and not the violence, who are in the foreground. 

The book establishes the truth of these voyages by printing a facsimile image of a ‘List of the Female Convicts on Board the Lady Penrhyn’ (p.2) from the National Library of Australia before its opening sentence. The list is just one of the thousands of surviving contemporary records that we have of transportation; yet from the driest bureaucratic files to the most emotionally charged diary entries, almost every source seems to have been written by a man. Even the pre-eminent study of transportation, Robert Hughes’s The Fatal Shore, which calculates that one in every seven transported convicts was female – ‘about twenty-four thousand’ (1) women in total – quotes from material sent to wives or about female convicts, but does not offer a single extended quotation from a transported woman in the twenty pages (of six-hundred and seven) that are devoted to them.

By contrast, the male voice—and gaze—is a rare, unwanted intrusion in Astraea.  Here, women are the subjects of their own sentences, speaking for themselves and among themselves. Mary Christie, for example, can rely on the other women getting the joke when she declares herself to be either a witch, or a madwoman, or a criminal: they ‘had got the measure of each other […] almost immediately’ (p.10). Less conspicuously, the text resists the administrative division of the women into either specific individuals or undifferentiated groups, often attributing experiences to ‘her,’ ‘she,’ or ‘the girl,’ allowing a meaningful sense of a female collective to emerge.

Giving these women voices is one of the many ways in which Astraea can be read as an exploration of haunting. Haunting requires a past that insists on being present; but it also requires that the present is resisting the past. Colonial England attempted to forget these women by transporting them to the other side of the world; but we forget them a second time if we fail to notice the absence of their voices in the written record. That makes their re-apparition here very welcome. 

Other hauntings are more complicated. The central character was christened ‘Marie Antoinette’, but, through a crude act of abbreviation by a lazy bureaucrat writing a list of convict names, she has been re-named ‘Maryanne’. Numbed after her newborn child was stripped from her at birth, she is determined to entertain only those thoughts that will help her survive transportation,

Maryanne welcomes the new name as an opportunity to obliterate her past self. She actively chooses to ‘scrape her mind clean like a farrier scraping a horse’s hoof’ (p.15) as she tries to create an untrammeled self; one that might be ‘fifteen in body, but truly, as a person, […] far younger even than that. She was quite new’ (p.18). 

While she observes and occasionally engages with life on the ship, Maryanne is haunted by memories she does not want. Surrounded by water she cannot drink, she recalls ‘a poem about that, […] precisely that’ (p.14), though she does not ‘know it beyond a few words and a suspicion that it might speak to her’ (p.15). Those few words are, naturally, ‘water, water, everywhere,’ (p.15), from Coleridge’s ‘The Rime of the Ancyent Marinere,’ Coleridge’s poem of a sailor’s ‘thirsty and unlucky’ (p.15) survival at sea. Despite Maryanne’s reaffirmation that ‘memory was not her business’ (p.15), the words trigger memories of her mother ‘joyless and grey and with no heart for poetry’ (p.14).  Maryanne’s attempt to reject a traumatic past and choose an untainted future has a clear emotional logic, but the lines from the poem recur twice more in the novella, again accompanied by unwanted memories ‘of the mother of the girl with the French name’ (p.32) as the memories will not be resisted. The use of the poem resonates further, suggesting that Maryanne may even be haunting her future self: Kruimink’s first, Vogel award-winning novel, A Treacherous Country, is set in van Diemen’s Land some years after Astraea, and it quotes both ‘The Rime of the Ancyent Marinere’ and ‘Kubla Khan’ as it follows a young man searching for ‘a woman called Maryanne Maginn’ (2). 

On board the Astraea, Maryanne is committed to the solitary darkness of the coal hole as a punishment with not a dead albatross but ‘a thick glass bottle of water […] hung on a cord about her neck’ (p.57). Amidst desperate hallucinations of her lost child, she hears the cry of an actual newborn and her ‘breasts began to prickle with milk’ (p.65). Her body remembers her own baby and Maryanne is overwhelmed by the ‘ache of a particular absence’ (p.65). Later, barely aware of what she is doing, Maryanne acts as a wet-nurse, able to offer relief and sustenance and a degree of hope only because of her own loss. Kruimink’s spare, emotive writing presents these as human acts without comparing, measuring, or justifying them; the absence of a utilitarian calculus suggesting that each of our griefs is irreducibly private. In Maryanne’s case, it is only when she allows herself to fully acknowledge the suffering ‘she knew and had always known’ (p.65) that she can begin to live again.

One question raised by Astraea’s hauntings is whether we can, or, perhaps more properly, whether we should, try to forget experiences of trauma. Are we right to be frightened by the fate of the mariner, cursed never to forget his own dreadful story? In the case of the real-life women who were transported the answer seems obvious: effacing their lives means misunderstanding our own Australian history. Even if the story scares us, their lives are worthy of remembrance in and of themselves. We owe them each the belated recognition of their own particular human dignity. Memorialising them is necessary work, and Astraea aids it. In the case of the individual human being, especially a mother suffering the immeasurable pain of losing a child, the answer is far more difficult. Perhaps we cannot understand ourselves without acknowledging our deepest traumas. Perhaps our integrity, our dignity, our sense of self depends upon such an acknowledgement, however unutterably painful. Not the least of Kruimink’s achievements is creating a space in which we can consider such a confronting possibility.

 

Cited

  1. Robert Hughes, The Fatal Shore (Vintage, 2003), p. 244
  2. K. M. Kruimink, A Treacherous Country (Allen & Unwin, 2020), p. 14.

 

FERGUS EDWARDS is a Lecturer in English at the University of Tasmania.  His research interests centre on the relationships between literature, performance, and philosophy, particularly the plays of Tom Stoppard and the philosophy of Ludwig Wittgenstein.  Fergus’s next academic publication will be in Modern Drama, discussing Stoppard, Havel, and plays of censorship.

Jasmine Darwin reviews The Vegetarian 채식주의자 by Han Kang, transl. Deborah Smith

The Vegetarian 채식주의자

by Han Kang

translated by Deborah Smith

Granta

ISBN: 9781846276033

Reviewed by JASMINE DARWIN

 

Does Eating Meat Make You Squirm? Try Going Without It. No, Really

 Set in contemporary South-Korea, The Vegetarian, 채식주의자 written by Han Kang and translated by Deborah Smith, is a gripping novel that follows one woman’s slow descent into insanity as she struggles to come to terms with the threads of her own destiny. Split into three novelettes, in the first, The Vegetarian, we watch protagonist Yeong-hye through the eyes of her husband, Mr Cheong, an egotistical, self-serving salaryman who cannot help but gawk at her downfall through a self-pitying eye. At first, he may gain our sympathies: his diet is ruined, and his wife, who suddenly refuses to eat meat, will not cook the bountiful, blood-adorned meals he once upon feasted. ‘How on earth could she be so self-centred?’ he asks, looking down at his bowl of misty seaweed soup while dreaming of the ‘caramelised deep-fried belly pork’ (p.13) and the ‘wafer-thin slices of beef’ (p.15) his wife once fed him. But our sympathies are short-lived. 

As Yeong-hye’s body shrivels, and her sanity slips into a state of clear and utter delirium, Mr Cheong fails to see his wife as a figure worthy of his empathy and instead turns himself into the victim of gross injustice. 

I thought I could get by perfectly well just thinking of her [his wife] as a stranger, or no, a sister, or even a maid, someone who puts food on the table and keeps the house in good order. But it was no easy thing for a man in the prime of his life…to have his physical needs go unsatisfied for such a long period. So yes, on nights when I returned home late and somewhat inebriated after a meal with my colleagues, I would grab my wife and push her to the floor…She put up surprisingly strong resistance and, spitting out vulgar curses all the while, one time in three I would manage to successfully insert myself. Once that happened, she lay there in the dark staring up at the ceiling, her face blank, as though she were a ‘comfort woman’ dragged in against her will, and I was the Japanese soldier demanding her services.
(emphasis added, p.30)

Unable to see beyond his own desires, he discounts Yeong-hye’s protest as childish. But Mr Cheong is also not so oblivious. The clarifier is loaded with guilt: So yes, Mr Cheong knows his actions are reprehensible. He actively confesses to the raping of his wife. But his crime is absolved by a patriarchal logic of possession which he weaponizes as her husband to reframe his crime as retaliatory. That is, she failed to live up to the expectations of a wife, and by denying him unfiltered access to her body, he is justified to retaliate. 

Riddled with sexual violence, bodily harm and immense physical and psychological suffering, The Vegetarian is an exploration of the violence and the deterioration of women’s bodies under the double-weight of capitalist and patriarchal pressures. In fact, the female body has a particular focus in this novel. When Yeong-hye begins to starve herself, Mr Cheong observes her transformation with a discerning eye. ‘At first she’d slimmed down to the clean, sharp lines of a dancer’s physique,’ he says, ‘and I’d hoped things might stop there…’ But when she doesn’t and continues to fall deathly underweight, he remains blithely ignorant to the dangers of her condition deciding instead that ‘this situation has nothing to do with me.’ (p.17-18)

His cowardice is something to be thankful for, and following their divorce, she seems to be happier and healthier. But it also leaves her open to other men who wish to exploit her. In the second novelette, Mongolian Mark, when her brother-in-law uses her body as a canvas for his own artistic endeavours, he describes her as a body from which ‘all desire had been eliminated.’ (p.80) And yet, this hardly stops him from taking advantage of her, and soon he enacts his own fantasies upon her figure. Yeong-hye attempts to wrestle back control, but her attempt to gain autonomy over her own body presents itself as delirium, which in turn, leads to an increasingly violent intervention as the people in her life struggle to “normalise” her. 

Normality, then, becomes more of a question than a given, and the ways in which Yeong-hye’s body is exploited and penetrated by male authority figures doubles as a metaphor for the ways in which the novel grapples with madness. Like psychiatric patients, straight-jacketed and tranquilized, Yeong-hye’s body is manipulated by the men in her life to appear docile or “normal.” But with growing expectations pressed upon women to be a good wife—or maid, mother, cook, cleaner, sister, muse, sexual-gratifier and to be financially and independently successful, it is unsurprising that Yeong-hye goes completely mad. Who wouldn’t? 

Yet, to me, Yeong-hye’s madness seems to be more-or-less deliberate. Yeong-hye’s delirium is no simple glitch of the mind. No malaise or malfunction. Rather, she deliberately descends into a cocoon of delirium to protect herself.

This I found incredibly interesting. As an object of desire, she intentionally disfigures her own body, turning herself into a skeletal-like creature to be shunned in a psychiatric ward and away from preying hands, as an act of self-defence. She makes herself deliberately undesirable—mentally and physically—to assert some form of control over herself. But the problem, we learn, is not with the body itself. It is the idea of her body, commodified and possessed by others, which prevents her from ever gaining the autonomy she desires; and—even as a shell of a human—when her cocoon is shattered, and control continues to be wrestled from her grasp, she pushes herself to the absolute extremes to regain her autonomy.  

At this point I found the novel particularly difficult to read. The final novelette, Flaming Trees, is jarringly violent and Yeong-hye’s acts of self-harm become more and more sinister. Often, I was forced to put it down. But this struggle, I would argue, is much the point. 

The harm Yeong-hye enacts upon her own body is hardly different to that inflicted upon her by the men in her life: her husband rapes her; her brother-in-law chokes and objectifies her; her father beats her blind; and the doctor subdues her body through injections, force-feeding and straightjackets. Yet, when this violence is self-inflicted, it seems all the more unnatural. Why is it, then, that when a woman commits harm against herself that we are only then forced to question it? 

Han Kang neatly exposes the fallacy of this position. That when the men surrounding Yeong-hye commit violence against her, it is normalised by discourse. But the violence itself is unnatural, and the reactions provoked by Yeong-hye’s acts of self-harm only prove this. “Normality,” then, has a different twist to it, and the author plays witness to how blame and violence is used to maintain social norms—despite these norms proving to be harmful. Indeed, there are numerous occasions when the novel uses Yeong-hye’s delirium to reflect upon the label of insanity itself. When In-hye, Yeong-hye’s sister, comes to visit her at the psychiatric hospital and witnesses a woman shrieking obscenities in the foyer, she observes how ‘blasé’ she has become to seeing the ‘mentally ill,’ and ‘after all these visits to the hospital, sometimes it’s the tranquil streets filled with so-called ‘normal’ people that end up seeming strange.’ (p.142)

Such strangeness is not without its own complications. Yeong-hye is not a loveable character. She causes nothing but disruption for the lives of those around her. She is sullen, stubborn, and sometimes stand-offish, but the commitment with which she upholds her inconvenience—completing her hour-long headstands, refusing to eat meat, and to the dismay of her husband, sporting her bare chest in public—begs the question: why does she behave in such a way? And what has prompted such a rapid transformation?

Importantly, we never hear the answer from Yeong-hye herself, and as her resistance becomes more sinister and her silence more obsolete, we watch as the character who surround her are forced—through immense violence and psychological contortions—to self-reflect and to consider the answer to these questions themselves. 

I will not spoil the conclusion. It is rather beautiful, if not dangerously, and perhaps a little too alluring. But I found it intriguing that the only figure who ever comes close to reaching Yeong-hye’s minds-eye is her sister. While the men in her life, namely, Mr Cheong and Yeong-hye’s brother-in-law, seldom question her behaviour, (Mr Cheong simply ignores her, and while her brother-in-law probes a little—‘Why is it you don’t eat meat?’(p.90)—he is distracted by ‘the sexual images [of her] that were running in his head,’) it is her sister, another woman, trapped in the chains of social expectation, who finally crosses that unspeakable bridge. 

The Vegetarian is a haunting and disturbing read and, while it can often feel a little over-indulgent in it’s depiction of violence—teetering into trauma-porn—it is important, nonetheless; and its commentary on the ways in which women can be so casually treated like livestock prompts significant reflection upon the ways in which we treat others—human or otherwise. Not to be corny, but this novel is definitely something to chew on. 

 

JASMINE DARWIN is a Sydney/Eora based writer with a special interest in feminist writing, literary fiction, nature and ecology. She works as a bush regenerator and when not trampling through the bushland and swimming on the east coast, you’ll find her curled up with a book, a cuppa’ of earl grey and a pen and paper.

Brian Obiri-Asare reviews Two Hundred Million Musketeers by Ender Başkan

Two Hundred Million Musketeers

Ender Başkan

Giramondo

ISBN 9781923106482

Reviewed by BRIAN OBIRI-ASARE

One of the distinct pleasures of reading poetry is when the fluidities of sense awaken the senses of meaning. When poems reach for this sweet spot, when language is so taut, so refined, it’s able to suggest – even trigger – unknown resonances, they demand to be unpacked.

This demand, really an insistence, finds its root in curiosity. It seeks to answer the question of how sense coheres into meaning. It draws from all the muck and mystery of existence, from our memories, obligations, dreams, from our interactions with others, from listening, talking, empathising and disagreeing. At the same time, it also draws from the human’s background and beyond, from all the aspects of being, the noise constantly in our ears, memory, politics, the ghostly, subliminal messages from our Instagram reels, movies, computer games, those nightmares, the seductively simple propaganda manufacturing our desires, those reminders that there’s more things in heaven and earth than can be dreamt of in our human, all too human, philosophies.

In Australia, where the majority of us have ancestral ties to an elsewhere, any investigation into how sense coheres into meaning is further complicated by the works of poets who, both consciously and subconsciously, draw from a mix of cultural and environmental stimulus. Culturally and linguistically diverse, such poets often come at things from a distance, with one foot inside, with one foot outside, occupying an in/out space. Often their work leans into the disorientation this positioning entails. It’s also possible to find new expressions of poetic originality within this invigorating terrain.

Ender Başkan’s Two Hundred Million Musketeers is one such example. In this his debut collection, he offers an extended intercourse with the muck and mystery of existence in poems that blend lyric and narrative modes with a raconteur’s aplomb. Everyday events, their sprawling interiority, their surreal particularity, are often the focus. The frequent use of the first person imparts a consistent partiality to the collection. And yet somehow, someway, sitting with the poems remains alluring, especially if you’re the type who hungers for the resonances of sense and meaning that only poetry can provide.

Opening with a banger, ‘Here Is The Shirt, (Get) Off My Back / Swimming In The Afternoon’ sets the tone for everything that follows. An outpouring of chat, like listening to one of your homies riffing, it starts in the flux of domesticity:

if you want an alarm clock to work
make sure you place it out of reach
but never mind
our mutual friends are awake and so are we
549am
i am dad
im on demand
raaaah-biiiish truuuuuuuck!
i run out to see the bin flung up and over
with you
why is the driver wearing sunglasses?
even if you miss the first truck
you get 2 more chances
sometimes a hot air balloon
milk! daddy can you make me a milk?
you fill the bottle/ start the kettle/ grind the coffee
rumi said you make your own oil as you cook
and as a cooker I say lets cook
(p.1)

The act of making a morning coffee with his daughter is the springboard for the narrator of this poem to leap into the maze of memory’s multifaceted directions. Cherished father daughter time is canvassed. Voices, particularly those of the narrator’s children, are channeled and re-routed into a polyphony of soundbites. There’s steez aplenty. An insistent class-consciousness lurks, hyper-aware and never afraid to announce itself. One gets to witness a mind weighed with awareness as it grapples and engages with the world:

now plunged into an abyss of middle-aged
left-wing melancholia to be recognised by prowling hyper-caffeinated
re-financed class-ascendant former schoolmates lucky my kid
is an anarcho-terrorist anti-capitalist critical-theorist
and disarms their line of enquiry with logic
calls them poo-poo heads…
(p.4)

History is also woven into the poem, making it buzz with the unsettled questions about country, myth, and dispossession that, to this day, still haunt Australia. For example, one discovers that

in 1828 the masters and servants act was passed in australia
aiming to quash the nascent workers movement / put people in their
place / reinforce the imposition of stolen land / free labour and
continuing genocide.
(p.12)

The poems that follow are similarly propulsive, always in motion, staunch in their defence of a way of being and belonging with and for others. They are rooted in family, domesticity, work, friends, history and bask in the mutability of the English language. Readers are introduced to the narrator’s dede, his anneanne, his babaannes, and glean insights into a migrant’s world. Reading Turkish encyclopedias and shopping at a no frills supermarket at Westfield are presented as part of the Australian everyday.

‘Hot Water’ provides a telling example of the mechanics of how these poems work and what choices Başkan makes. It begins at a kitchen counter somewhere in Australia. The narrator is with Sophie, his partner, who’s telling a story. At the wrong moment, the narrator picks up a cup of scalding water, and this act turns into a memory of visiting a friend in Istanbul. This in turn leads the narrator to think about Muhsin Kut, a painter who wanted to be an architect but finds himself propelled to the antipodes in 1969

and locals say to him
you have no choice
youll make as much money as your willingness
to do the dirtiest most tiring work and
so mushsin walks into a Balmain soap factory
and they say
youre a painter!?
(p.37)

Riding the leitmotif of water, the poem goes on to harness a ‘psychic luna park of associations’ (p 48). There’s an internal playfulness as the narrator zigzags from Melbourne to Turkey and back again, boisterously leaning into a type of dislocation very familiar to a child of migrants. Threads are followed, abandoned, and sometimes reemerge. At the poem’s end, a satisfying taste of completion lingers.

Ender Başkan contains multitudes. He’s a father, son, partner, poet, bookseller, and a novelist. He’s the winner of the 2021 Overland Judith Wright Prize and was mentored by the late Ania Walwicz. His poetry emerges from within a tradition of migrant poets writing in the English language who tease and exploit the variations and politics of sound and speech. It is from within this wake that Two Hundred Million Musketeers engages in its act of poiesis – the bringing forth of new wholes and syntheses. It is both an experiment and an invitation to adventure. It demands care and attention on the part of readers to make meaning. With its slant truths and occasional dazzlements, it is a uniquely Australian testament of this thing we call life.

 

BRIAN OBIRI-ASARE is a writer working across poetry, prose, and drama. He is a recipient of the Northern Territory Literary Award for Poetry and has been shortlisted for the Judith Wright Poetry Prize. His recent poems have appeared in Westerly, Cordite, Southword and other spaces.

Paul Scully reviews still black water by Simeon Kronenberg

still back water

by Simeon Kronenberg,

Pitt Street Poetry

ISBN 978-1-922776-22-8

Reviewed by PAUL SCULLY

Laura (Riding) Jackson and Robert Graves counsel, in A Survey of Modernist Poetry, that a poem is an entity in itself and should be read as such. (1) So, too, a collection, presumably. While these counsels undoubtedly ring true for one level of reading, it is necessary to offend against them to take account of an oeuvre or to detect changes in style or central concerns. Simeon Kronenberg’s still black water, his second collections of pearlescent poetry, can be read satisfyingly  in the first way and differentially in the second as an extension or revision of his first collection, distance, given their overlapping themes (2). Perhaps eroticism is the only fascination that does not transition as strongly to the new collection, though love is all pervasive. In a sense Kronenberg has eschewed breadth for depth. I will write here solely of still black water.   

Section 1 of the collection, ‘Eclipse’, written mostly in couplets and triplets, has the feel of  journeys revisited, of place as exemplified in the poems ‘Darlinghurst, 11pm Friday 27 March 2020’ and ‘Castlemaine, March 2023’, and of lives, the friends he memorialises (‘Diagnosis’, ‘Passing’, ‘Funeral’) and his own, with rural concerns replacing his citified adult past and hints that this frames a return to origins, although this be over-reading the persona in ‘Regulator, For “Benjamin Dodds’–“I too wish to return/ to my country// of rained on hills/ under cumulus skies”. Death is ever present–“I think about death/ most days now” (‘Most days’)–suggesting its cold hand has brushed the poet’s own shoulder through a medical crisis or something equivalent. There is both sadness and affection in remembering his friends:

There you are  She wore pink floral
caught  that swirled around her legs
as your life  
dissolves as she swayed and slid
  to the music”
into not more –  –  ‘Passing, i.m. Pat Anderson’
of sherbet  
on the tongue
 
– ‘Diagnosis, i.m. Helen Johns’
 
(p.16)
 

The poems in this section are reflective, indeed wistful, and evocative, with the pithiness and resort to nature that typify the historic Chinese and Japanese poets Kronenberg obviously takes delight in – “I think about the wind in trees// as the old Chinese poet did/ a thousand years ago// in the rambler’s hut/ as he listened to the pine trees” (‘Wind, For Debbie Bird Rose’ ).

Kronenberg has eyes for family through the ‘Window’ of Section 2, a natural concomitant of mood, where forms are more expansive among the now expected short lines, couplets and triplets. He sees his father’s face in the mirror in the eponymous poem and recalls him fondly tending the hearth in ‘Ash’ and with rage in ‘Still’, although these latter memories amount to “nothing”. The affection for his mother is unequivocal, though, in ‘Fog’, he concedes perhaps a child’s ignorance of the whole person as he peers into a starlit night:

What do I know
of my mother?
A migratory light
in the dark
and a deep fog
that came after–
and like a too heavy
quilt it remained. 
(p.32)

She features in five poems and her suffering, from depression or melancholia perhaps, and relatively early death hang over the poet, “finally spent, like a moth/ banged on to windscreen glass” (‘Haze’). Kronenberg stretches beyond his parents to his grandparents to their homelands and larger ancestry. His siblings are collectivised into “us” and “the children’ and these memories bring back the thought of his own death, “Someone told me/ he was surprised/ I was still alive // …//…-and know/ really know/ I’m coming up to death” (’Might as well name it’). There is a certain sadness ladling through these reminiscences but it does not tip over into maudlinism or a bewailing self.

The shortest section, ‘Self’, follows and it is almost exclusively set in Bali, a spiritual and artistic sanctuary for the poet, perhaps occasioned by its exoticism and reinforced by having met his partner there. Both inhabit ‘Music’ and ‘Sanur, Bali. April 2022’:

I think you about you … I taxied to Sanur where you waited
and Pantai Saba perched inside the fragrance of
frangipani
and foam on the reef
as coconut palms shed frond elegant in a white Javanese shirt, severe and still
like discarded shields  like an egret in the shallows.
(p.53)  

Death intervenes even here (“the sudden apprehension/ of my death”, ‘Music’), but the context suggests more a revenant than a presiding spirit. The other incursion is the need and will to write and they inform the “promise” he makes in ’It’s not as if’ “to inhabit my life,/ to understand//the yawn/and ache of it.” 

Kronenberg loves the arts and the final section, ‘Tracks’, acknowledges and indulges his inspirations. This is the longest section in the collection and the arts seem as much home for him as place. Poets and writers predominate, in harmony with “I’ve never wanted more/ than to write” in ‘It’s not as if’ in the previous section. Despite this he can treat books roughly–“I first break/ their spines–// … By breaking backs/ I release them–// and me” ( ‘Books’). He uses Charles Simic to underline the attempted reconciliations of the previous sections–“I’m more at ease/ with the past/ than I’ve been// as I write/ it’s up ahead/ in clear sight” (‘Past, After Charles Simic’)–and  Dick Davis to acknowledge “that awful fact/ means I’m inclined to dwell/ on the bad unfinished business// of my mother’s death/ … // … And still, I write her into poems” (‘Coda, After Dick Davis’). Simic features three times. Adam Zagajewski, Ted Hughes and Anthony Lawrence twice. The poems riffed from Allen Ginsberg, Constantine Cavafy and Bruce Gardiner point to a gay heritage that Kronenberg prizes.  

While still black water is infused with reflections on mortality, it is not, as noted earlier, weighed down by them; it is, in fact, buoyed by them. The arts and love elevate life and Kronenberg is an enthusiastic participant in both and his collection fulfils its final lines, “this (perhaps not always) invented life/ in poetry where the mystery/ is all that’s revealed”.

Notes

1. Robert Graves and Laura Riding, A Survey of Modernist Poetry (1927; reprint, Folcroft, PA: Folcroft Library Editions, 1971). This counsel partly inspired the so-called close reading of a poem associated with the “New Criticism” movement of William Empson et al.
2. Simeon Kronenberg, still black water (Sydney: Pitt Street Poetry, 2026); Simeon Kronenberg, distance (Sydney: Pitt Street Poetry, 2018).
 
PAUL SCULLY is a Sydney-based poet with four published collections, the latest being The Literary Detective and Other Crimes published by Bonfire Press in 2025. He holds a Doctor of Arts from Sydney University. His work has been commended and shortlisted in major Australian poetry prizes and published in print and online journals in Australia, Ireland, the UK and USA. His website is http://paulscullypoet.com.au/.

Marvellous Igwe

Marvellous Mmesomachi Igwe, Swan X, is a poet from Port Harcourt, Nigeria. He has been published in Agbowó, Chestnut Review, Electric Literature, Palette Poetry, Poet Lore, Sontag MagazineCollaborature, Weganda Review, Cloudscent Journal, Serotonin, Isele, Dawn Review, amongst others. He is the winner of the 2024 Kukogho Iruesiri Samson Poetry Prize, co-winner of the 2024 Poetry Column NND Chapbook Award, a finalist for the 2025 Rhonda Gail Williford Award for Poetry and was shortlisted for the 2025 Alpine Fellowship Poetry Prize. You can find him listening to his favorite singer Lana del Rey, or writing a poem. He tweets @mesomaccius.

 
 
 


Ceuta

Darling, you must know I am softer than my horns. I promise, my intentions are pure. Believe me. Like Aeneas, I would not have come seeking if our land was good, if our land was not burning. Years, we waited for the inferno to stop. But did it stop? Has our salvation not always been separated from us by a distance— a wound, a meridian, an open sea? Even now I am at the shore of my bettering, willing to risk death to survive death. To survive the heat and the bullet, the saltwater, the blood. Open your arms if I make it to your bosom. I deserve that, at least. Something warm and welcoming. Something good. Something that is not the angel on the watchtower sending me back to the water by the gun. I am just as human. Just as mauled by this desire to live. So what would you do if I reach the white sands, my starved body naked and slick, my blue heart torn to pieces by the cruel hands of the ocean? You would let me live, Darling. You would let me live.

First line attributed
to Samuel Adeyemi

Michael Griffiths reviews A Savage Turn by Luke Patterson

A Savage Turn

Luke Patterson

Magabala Books
Hachette

ISBN: 9781922777928

Reviewed by MICHAEL GRIFFITHS

The opening poem of the third and final section of Luke Patterson’s A Savage Turn sees the speaker partly attached to but mostly scathing about his place of birth, Kurnell—the suburb of Sydney’s Sutherland shire that sits at the location of Cook’s landing in 1770. The poet writes, beginning almost in media res:

lined with Norfolk-pining nostalgia-thin
myths of peaceful settlement I’m wondering
why I return to your history strung out

in clay-bone-coloured rhythms—
kurnell seaside hometown crooning 250
years on I’ve come tumbling back to you
(81)

Patterson’s lines are affectionate even as they draw a line at settler colonial myth. They love the place but not the justification of colonial invasion that are laden across its shores, riven with “myths of peaceful settlement.” This poem evinces a clear predilection on Patterson’s part to combat colonial narratives that cover over colonisation, occupation, incarceration and other practices with a tone of deep irony.

This is a brilliant and perceptive, comedic and cutting collection. In particular, I find Patterson’s collection to strategically deploy sardonic critique—with its biting humour at the worst abuses that Indigenous people in Australia have been subject to. This is not to say that there are not many poems of deep affection for lovers and friends, places and people; but the mode of the sardonic is, I suggest, a frequent and highly effective critique of A Savage Turn.

The collection begins with several poems that set this tone: the opening “Waratah,” all this themes of conquest and colonisation are also undergirded by culturally grounded sadness and survival:

You know the way
The story goes

Reading legends
At the flowering stage

Brimstone and blood
Men treading to war

In the dream you have
Grief grows a totem
(3)

“Waratah”—named as it is for a beautiful native flower, is shown to be caught up in a cycle where the beauty of Indigenous cultural practice is reduced to grief and “legends / at the flowering stage” take on a settler state sensibility (like the flower itself an emblem for New South Wales). From this opening poem, we are led to a direct reflection on James Cook’s story and legacy in “Australia: A Creation Myth.” As “old man cooky” arrives, the titular trope of the “savage” gets turned on its head throughout this second poem (4). Australia becomes “savage, a state of nature / for the taking” (4). The final lines of the poem superbly move the trope of savagery in all its senses: as a projection onto Aboriginal cultural life even as the colony itself is seen to be savage:

[The colony] swallowed the flowering
medicines, sweet abundance sustenance, and shat out pox
and profit. It swallowed earth’s

custodians, exquisite, ingenious, savage, always savage
but could not consume them.
(p.4–5)

The note of the scatological (“shat out”) here, draws in the way critique in A Savage Turn is at times oriented through an effective use of the vulgar, sometimes also through sexuality. Indeed, the poet’s apparent alter ego (it’s his social media handle on several platforms, for what it’s worth) is the “smutty paperbark,” and this trope lends its name to a poem in the collection. Much of the poem “Smutty Paperbark—a Postcolonial,” takes on the colonial appropriation of the very cultural apparatuses of healing and resistance that remain as the purview of Indigenous autonomy; take for instance:

I’m Blackapedia
As british as tea
I thought I was black
jesus with a secret/sacred
constellation of freckles speckled
on my arse
but then the southern cross
became a symbol for bashing
people of colour.
(p.29)

But returning to the colonial, this concern only intensifies after “Australia—A Creation Myth,” not least with a series of nine poems running through the entire collection, which play with the light and shade of the font colour on the page; the aforementioned “Transit of Venus” poems. These poems play with not only hermeneutic critique but the form of printing itself and playing with form becomes a further theme as Patterson takes up fixed and traditional forms such as the Rondolet (in “Rondolettatat” [16]) and the Triolet (in “Triolet x2” [87]). Since the Triolet uses a repetition of rhyming words, Patterson uses this to both vary and refer to the sacred dimension of life and language:

as aunt shows me her lagoon
The sun sets and even the moon
is listening to a story born.
Aunt is the lagoon
where she was born.
(p.87)

Patterson is a trained folklorist, a practice that comes out in poems such as “The Informants,” and “Eclair Noir (Flash Blak),” the latter of which declares the speaker a “gap-trapped fulla caught / reading Claude Lévi-Strauss / in the lingua franca: English” (14–15). Yet, Patterson’s engagement with colonial knowledge is not only with that anthropological paradigm that can be productively drawn on (not without risk of course) but also the carceral nature of much black relation with the Australian state. A consistent participant, engaged with Wadi Wadi elder, Aunty Barbara Nicholson’s “Dreaming Inside” project of teaching and workshopping poetry within prisons in New South Wales, Patterson includes in his collection several poems drawn from the experience of acting as a tutor on the project. As the speaker of “Under a Wiradjuri Sky,” goes through the process of entering a prison as a visitor he wonders about the role these institutions are meant to play in a so-called postcolonial society:

Scanned, checked, finger printed
Identity disassembled
(intentionally?)
This visitor’s lanyard around my neck
and the light wanes to an institutional white.
(p.73)

Patterson’s concerns with colonial violence and institutional power are continuous both between the modes of power themselves and the historical continuum that marks them as an ongoing structure of dispossession. In the prison poems, the sardonic tone is replaced by one more solemn as the speaker and the poet remain in recognition of the immediacy of the ongoing colonial practice of incarceration.

There are many other crucial dimensions to this resplendent collection beyond these questions of colonisation’s critique (which is there, ever present), the sardonic, institutional violence and the emphasis on sexuality (and the queering of critique soars in “Losing a Love Language and a Brother” [100]). This is a collection to look over and reread, revisit and resituate as you situate yourself from Kurnell to Wiradjuri Country and many places between and besides. But while the poems are signed and signified in a deeply personal way, Patterson refuses the spectatorial and colonial gaze throughout. As the title poem notes, while “This is the poem / where I’m meant to spill my guns and you read the entrails [ . . . ]” but, playfully “this” poem is deferred, with the poem closing, “and I promise to add it to my next collection / if we live that long.” May we live to read Patterson’s further iteration on iterability.
 
 
MICHAEL GRIFFITHS is Associate Professor of English Literature at the School of Humanities, University of Wollongong. His latest book is The Death of the Author and Anticolonial Thought.

Nina Culley reviews An Onslaught of Light by Natasha Rai

An Onslaught of Light

Natasha Rai

Pantera Press

ISBN 9780648619093

Reviewed by NINA CULLEY

 

Natasha Rai’s debut novel An Onslaught of Light opens with Archana, or “Arch” as she is known, stepping onto Sydney’s tarmac, breathing in the damp heat. It’s immediately clear that avoidance is her go-to: she declines a call from her brother, Sunny, pushes away a thought of her Amma, and flees almost immediately to the mountains. She’s running from something, though Rai doesn’t name it outright. Much of the novel is shaped by this sense of distance – not only Arch’s, but her family’s collective inclination to shut out hard truths. As Rai makes clear, however, unresolved trauma rarely stays buried. It seeps, quietly and indomitably, into the present.

Rai’s story unfolds through alternating perspectives – Arch in the present, and her parents, Indu and Vijay, in the past – moving between post-COVID Australia and earlier decades beginning in India in the early 1970s. When we first encounter Arch, now in her late thirties or early forties, she’s living the life of a recluse. Despite her best efforts to remain removed, she is drawn back into her family orbit through Sunny, the youngest child and the family’s gentle mediator. Where Arch is volatile and textbook avoidant – time and again choosing to “push [her emotions] deep inside her, down into the swamp with all the other miseries buried in the depths of her core” (p.269) – Sunny is steady, less burdened by trauma.

The novel then moves backward, first to Indu and Vijay as newlyweds in India, and later to the family’s migration to Australia in the 1980s and 90s, where Rai situates their struggles within a distinctly hostile cultural moment. For migrant families, this was a period of immigration panic, heightened pressure to assimilate, both casual and overt racism, coinciding with the rise of Pauline Hanson’s One Nation party and a broader absence of institutional language or cultural literacy. Emotional suffering definitely existed, but it was rarely articulated; instead, silence, distraction, and endurance were mistaken for resilience.

It’s unsurprising, then, that the family finds the adjustment disorientating. Arch is bullied at school; Indu, grieving her mother and newly estranged from her father, is lonely and unmoored; and Vijay, once a successful architect in India, is forced to start over, working in a laundromat while proudly clinging to his culture through the Indian Association – people who “understand what they have lost and what they continue to lose” (p.114). His frustration often turns into anger and violence toward Arch and, on one occasion, Indu. A devastating loss compounds these tensions, leaving the family fractured and haunted way into the present.

Neither timeline outshines the other. Rai structures the novel so that the past clarifies the emotional logic of the present, while the present becomes a space of reckoning – caught between running and confronting, old patterns and growth. Nowhere is this more affecting than in Vijay’s present-day arc where he’s diminished, reflective, and increasingly fragile, building shrines and seeking atonement for his younger self. His mental health struggles form a small but insistent part of the novel, echoing Indu’s depression, which in the early 1990s was barely understood. Within the context of migration, this feels especially apt: research shows diasporic populations experience high of untreated depression and anxiety, exacerbated by isolation, cultural stigma, and systemic barriers to care. By giving voice to Arch’s parents, Rai invites empathy and nuance without excusing any of the harm.

Arch, too, is shaped by contradiction, a complexity that surfaces most clearly in her discomfort with her own heritage. As a child, she distances herself from her Indianness, embarrassed by her saree-wearing mother, anxious that her clothes smell of curry, and desperate to pass by unnoticed. Later, she insists she is unlike “other Indians,” (p.252) listing temples, rituals, and traditions with both disdain and shame, admitting that being Indian makes her feel ugly. In this, Rai places Arch within a familiar lineage of diaspora protagonists for whom assimilation often demands a painful level of self-erasure.

Arch’s alienation is further complicated by her queerness. As a teenager, she understands her sexuality as inseparable from her Indianness, assuming her family wouldn’t be accepting. Even as an adult, intimacy remains fraught: she avoids defining her relationship with Emma, a singer she meets later in the novel, and remains intensely sensitive about her own sense of belonging and otherness, becoming angry, for example, when Emma asks about her cultural heritage. “I sound like you, I dress like you, but it’s not enough. I have to explain why I look like this. Different,” (p.218) she snaps.

*

As well as the novel’s engagement with Indian traditions and food, An Onslaught of Light features a distinctly dreary Australianness. There’re beers in shrubby backyards, drinks on the water, suggestions of hitting the RSL, beach swims and silky summer days. Suburban inertia is thickly coated as characters watch David Attenborough on the couch or eat doughy pizza at a new restaurant in town.

This slowness may frustrate readers searching for dramatic climaxes, but it’s also what makes the novel so convincing. Rai’s pacing is deliberate and wise, moving across decades to reflect the reality that sadly there’re no quick fixes for anger or trauma – only community, small and imperfect acts of care, and a lot of time. It’s a realisation that Arch finally registers as she watches her niece Zoe navigate racism with a vocabulary she herself never had, allowing her to see, at once, how much has changed and all that persists.

 

NINA CULLEY is a Thai-Welsh writer and critic based in Naarm. Her essays and reviews have appeared in Kill Your DarlingsLiminalAniko PressMascara Review, and more. As a theatre, arts, and literary critic, her work is regularly published in Time OutLimelight, and ArtsHub. In 2024, she was named one of Mascara Review’s Emerging Critics. She previously worked as Editorial Assistant at Kill Your Darlings.

 

Nourhan Abdallah

Nourhan Abdallah is a novelist, short fiction writer and poet from Egypt who now lives in Australia. She works as a multidisciplinary creative professional and graphic designer. She holds a degree in Theatre Criticism and Drama. Nourhan is an Arabic language teacher for children, focusing on developing reading, writing, and expressive skills through engaging and age-appropriate methods.
 
 
 
Sorrow Drinks from an Empty Tap

Sorrow is a wooden box
placing its hands in the heart of the sea,
and the waves rise
as if rehearsing my heart.
Feelings are restless,
and a small solitude by the shore
is enough
to return meaning to life—
for me,
and for everyone searching for a love
time does not betray.
Love is like feeding children at night
to the ringing of the city’s bells.
A child cries
to announce that the night has grown long,
that the distance between his crying and his sorrow
is made of dense hours of pain.
His mother holds him,
so he survives,
so the pain ends—
if only a little.
Sorrow is a great ship
devouring all the waves.
The poem weeps,
and I weep in its middle,
my feelings are unable to endure
interpretation or patience.
I apologize to sorrow
and place my heart between its hands,
perhaps because I am carving a small window
through which a dim light escapes,
passing through a hole in my chest,
calling my name.
Time steals my pains,

and sorrow lifts its hat,
as if greeting me
with a gentle mockery.
I am lost
between gathering the remnants of myself
and aiming for my rifle
at the mind of sorrow.
I feel nothing,
except that my hand freezes,
and my crying hangs
like a heavy cluster of gold.
Life is a dramatic shot,
and sorrow is a scene
repeated every day.
I am tired of life,
and tired of sorrow,
as if they were two bells
taking turns
knocking on my head.
I look through a large lens
and capture my feelings between my fingers,
not from my feet,
as if they flee from me—
only to return.
Sorrow slips in
to reassure life
that a woman here
is still resisting,
still asking for peace.
But fate
did not grant her enough chance to survive,
because sorrow—quite simply—
drinks from an empty tap.

الحُزن يشرب من صِنبور فارغ

الحزنُ صندوقٌ خشبيّ

يضع يدَيْه في قلب البحر
فتثورُ الأمواجُ كأنها تُجرّب قلبي
المشاعرُ متقلّبة
وخلْوةٌ صغيرةٌ بجانب الشاطئ
قادرةٌ أن تعيدَ للحياةِ معناها
لي
ولكلِّ من يبحث عن حب
لا يخونه الوقت
الحبُّ كإطعامِ الصغارِ في المساءِ
على رنينِ أجراسِ المدينة
يبكي طفلٌ
ليعلنَ أن الليلَ طال
وأن المسافةَ بين بكائه وحزنِه
ساعاتٌ كثيفةٌ من الوجع
فتحتضنه أمُّه
لينجو
لينتهي الألم ولو قليلًا

الحزنُ سفينةٌ كبيرة
تلتهمُ كلَّ الأمواج
والقصيدةُ تبكي
وأنا أبكي في منتصفها
ومشاعري لا تحتملُ تأويلاً ولا صبرًا

أعتذرُ للحزن
وأضعُ قلبي بين يدَيْه
ربما لأنني أصنعُ نافذةً صغيرة
ينجو منها ضوءٌ خافت
يمرُّ من ثقبٍ في صدري
ينادي عليّ

الوقتُ يسرقُ آلامي
والحزنُ يرفعُ قبعته
كأنّه يحيّيني بسخريةٍ ناعمة

وأنا تائهةٌ
بين لملمةِ بقايا نفسي
وبين تصويبِ بندقيتي نحو عقلِ الحزن

لا أشعرُ بشيء
إلا أن يدي تتجمّد
وأن بكائي يتدلّى

كعنقودٍ من ذهبٍ ثقيل

الحياةُ لقطةٌ درامية
والحزنُ مشهدٌ يُعاد كلَّ يوم

مللتُ الحياة
ومللتُ الحزن
كأنهما ناقوسان
يتناوبان الطرقَ على رأسي

أنظرُ من خلال عدسةٍ كبيرة
فألتقطُ مشاعري من بين أصابعي
لا من قدمي
كأنها تهربُ مني وتعود

يتسلّل الحزن
ليطمئنَ الحياة
أن امرأةً هنا
لا تزالُ تقاوم
وتطلبُ السلام
لكن القدر
لم يمنحها فرصةً كافية للنجاة
لأن الحزن — ببساطة —

يشرب من صنبورٍ فارغ

Thuy On reviews How to Dodge Flying Sandals by Daniel Nour

How to Dodge Flying Sandals 

Daniel Nour

Simon & Schuster

ISBN 9781923046573

Reviewed by THUY ON

 

There is a trajectory that is followed by most memoirists: the incremental build-up of many unhappy happenstances that lead to the peak of anguish and an epiphany of sorts before lessons are duly learned and a hard-won resolution is granted. The term ‘misery memoir’ is pejorative, but there’s a nub of truth in such a description: many authors do wallow in the mire, particularly of other people’s making, and many memoirs seem to be commissioned largely because of the hardships suffered and the resilience shown by the narrator, ultimately leading to some kind of rosy outcome that champions survival over victimhood.

We all know how these memoirs usually go. Whatever the background of the protagonist, there is trauma underpinning their stories; trauma is used as a foundational linchpin that holds the narrative together. An earnest tone will also carry the heavy weight of the book from beginning to end, with gravitas favoured over levity.

However, Daniel Nour’s How to Dodge Flying Sandals and Other Advice for Life playfully subverts the standard memoir in several ways. This debut book deals with the double whammy of identity crises: the trials of being a child of Eygptian immigrants in Western Sydney and of being queer. Individually, each and either subset of circumstances are likely to create more than a twinge of discomfort for a young adult testing out the parameters of selfhood, but combined, their twin challenges can cause great volatility and uncertainty to a sensitive teenager. How Nour navigates both is the subject of the book.

In some ways he dramatises the usual tropes of an ethnic memoir; the expected checklist is acknowledged and honoured: the uneasy straddling between cultures, the generational gap that causes confusion and rebellion, the push and pull of conformity and independence. But the most distinctive way that Sandals differs from other memoirs is that it uses humour as a coping mechanism and as a way to diffuse tension.

The first clue that this book is atypical is in the title. It’s not written in chronological order but in the way of self-help guides. Every chapter is titled “How to….” (for instance, Succeed Academically, Become a Father, Date Men, Survive a Global Pandemic). Each milestone is filtered through Nour’s own experiences and there’s a stand-up comic’s lightness of touch and impeccable timing that informs each section. The second clue is that Nour’s author notes point out that he has taken some “liberties”. It’s a gentle admission perhaps that some of the set pieces within the book have been amplified and tweaked for comedic purposes, and hence we’re looking at an unreliable narrator here rather than someone committed to scrupulous truth-telling.

How to Dodge Flying Sandals is like a collection of short stories, episodic in style, and together these snapshots aim for an emotional truth about growing up in an Egyptian-Australian household as a person of faith (Coptic Catholic) while coming to terms with your sexuality. Told in a series of standalone vignettes, the structure allows Nour to use flashbacks and move back and forth in time, which means that the chapters can feel disjointed, but they also allow you to dip in and out of the book (like rifling through an anthology of tales) rather than have to read from beginning to end.

Interestingly enough, there is no chapter devoted to the title instructive, How to Dodge Flying Sandals. It stands as an overall metaphor for the memoir itself, insofar as among the raft of challenges faced by young Arabs, Nour explores various ways of dodging cultural and gender stereotypes as well as religious guilt and parental expectations.

From the very first chapter, “How to Die”, we’re introduced to a motley crew of extended relatives at the funeral of Nour’s grandfather, Gidoo. The scene is chaotic, with grieving and garrulous members arguing about death proprieties, money owed and inheritance promises all at the same time. Already we can see Nour’s knack for characterisation and dialogue (Sandals can easily be transferred into an audio book for a bonus suite of accents).

Family dynamics aside, the author’s self-exploration continues throughout the book, with several chapters showing how his nascent sexuality is routinely quashed by everyday homophobia. Here he is, in all his childish innocence and early gay sensibilities, wondering what he will do when he grows up, asking his mother (who quickly shuts the question down), “What if I don’t want to get married but travel everywhere and tell big speeches on stage in a dress? And I’ll have my friends Steve and Jeremy with me and kiss them.” (p.11) His father is more direct when five-year-old Nour wears a pink chiffon dress and is duly told, “Habibi, only girls wear dresses … You’re my big man, my big boy so I need you to act like a man, not a faffy.” (p.130)

Yet, regardless of how they feel about his queerness, the love and support of his parents are shown to be unconditional. Even when they can’t attend his high school graduation, they take photos of Nour, and “Their faces are shining with happiness like a feast is laid out for the whole family” (p.71). At another point, his father reassures him, “You should never feel embarrassed about who you are, habibi.” (p.28)

Such fraught internal discussions of who he is versus who he should be is coupled with the young Nour’s body shame (fears of being called ‘Bitch-tits” at school swimming makes him cringe about undressing in the boys’ change rooms) and worries about societal prejudices of his background (“If you tell people you’re Egyptian they’ll say you’re a terrorist and beat you up,” (p.31) cautions his older sister Rita). It’s a credit to Nour that despite contentious subjects around sex and race, there is still a seam of humour that runs through even the most overwrought situations. This is because he often laughs at himself and generously invites us to laugh alongside him.

His vulnerabilities and follies are exposed so we can better understand and empathise with his rocky passage to adulthood, a path paved with self-hate, bullying, peer group pressure and hypocrisy. It’s this willingness to own up to his confusion that makes How to Dodge Flying Sandals engaging and emotionally honest. We witness him being so deep in the closet he’ll criticise same-sex marriage on national television in a show called Christians Today (“How to Be a Big TV Star”). The gay awakening was still yet to surface.

The beauty is in the details, and the book is studded with close observations. Like how, while his father is at work in a newsagency (4am starts, 9pm home time), Nour’s weekday substitute is Sesame Street’s The Count, “his accent and massive Arab-looking nose is strangely comforting.” (p.11)

Though the bulk of the book concentrates on his childhood and adolescence, How to Dodge Flying Sandals also documents the first steps of Nour’s fledgling career in words (“How to Break News”.) He was previously awarded the NSW Premier’s Young Journalism Award by Multicultural NSW. That Nour also dabbles in improv comedy explains the humour in the memoir.

Instead of simply recounting events and incidences, the tales in How to Dodge Flying Sandals are crafted in such a way that it utilises all the skillset of a fiction writer, with plot, dialogue and characterisation carefully considered. The only difference is that Nour uses his own life as material to enable you to step into his sandals. The result is the antithesis to the “misery memoir”. It’s a book that may tread familiar grounds in terms of the struggle for self-acceptance despite myriad pressures, but it captures all the awkwardness, stresses and triumphs of a young Arab queer man growing up in Australia and does so not with hand-wringing angst, but with laughter in every chapter.

 

THUY ON is an arts journalist, editor, critic and poet. She’s the author of three poetry collections, all published by UWAP: Turbulence (2020), Decadence (2022) and Essence (2025). Thuy’s currently working on her fourth book, and yes, its title will rhyme with the previous books!

Timmah Ball reviews Alien Daughters Walk Into the Sun by Jackie Wang

Alien Daughters Walk Into the Sun:
An Almanac of Extreme Girlhood,

Jackie Wang

SemioText(e)/Penguin

9781635901924

Reviewed by TIMMAH BALL

Who is the type of person who writes books? 

Channel that violence. I want to live in language in a way that makes sense to me. I want to use these words in a way that doesn’t feel alienating. But when I sit down to write, everything is filtered through their way of saying things, their judgments. Who gives a shit about literary manners and their monopoly on speech? The task is to blow up the language.

-Jackie Wang

Wang’s exhilarating mandate reads like a punk manifesto but is taken from an essay Aesthetic Forms of Respect for the Status Quo- in her recent non-fiction collection Alien Daughters walk into the Sun: An Almanac of Extreme Girlhood (2023). Within it, writings stretch across categories: blog posts collide with verse, diaristic writing with monologue and out of print pamphlets sit alongside cultural criticism. The book collates writing previously distributed as zines, Tumbler posts, DIY outfits and in small independent journals making its ability to shit all over ‘literary manners and monopoly’ palpable. The result is a raw deviation from the constraints of commercial or even indie publishing houses. Engaging with the collection was thrilling but given the contrast between the writing’s origins and its eventual packaging as a book another feeling emerged as I read it. An awareness that it arose through the frameworks it was determined to critique – distributed in this continent through Penguin Books Australia. A curiosity triggered by Wang’s own doubts and analysis of where her career had landed. 

In the collections introduction Wang reveals a level of unease reflecting on her early twenties lifestyle and politics formed around punk squats and queer kinship. It is these communities that supported her activism and sustained a radical writing practice that would over time creep into the literary canon. These reflections provided insights which I wasn’t quite aware of and having invested in zine-making and self-publishing over the past few years, it felt like I had arrived at the collection in reverse. I never followed her Tumblr or blog and didn’t attempt to track down the zines she made while living in activist communities – because I wasn’t aware of them. I had discovered Jackie Wang’s monograph (and print debut) Carceral Capitalism (2018) Semitext(e)/ MIT unaware of her zine-making origins, returning to the book obsessively and with increased intensity after reading her poetry debut and National Book Award Finalist The Sunflower Cast a Spell to Save Us from the Void (2021) Night boat Books. To uncover her early writing practice so late – now bound as a prestigiously published book – suggested that my own reading tastes were becoming conventional even though I remained critical of the dominant industry. But my contradictory reading habits seemed to reflect Wang’s own uncertainty about the way her writing had moved outside of DIY contexts. She describes this transformation and questions the sharp change in the introductory essay

At the time they were written, they were not meant to be arranged into a book. It still surprises me that I have become the kind of person who makes books. 

I have a PhD from Harvard now. I put money away into a retirement account while I write from the comfort of a tenure-track job. I’m not cleaning up broken glass or wrestling knives from my lover’s hands while flitting from punk house to punk house, in search of a place to land.

In another essay, she recounts the transition chronologically, with a casual tone as if it happened by accident:

For a year I lived out of a suitcase, bouncing from couch to couch, from Chicago to Glasgow to Albuquerque to San Francisco to New York City and back to Florida, to deal with my brother’s hearing and appeal. At the end of my sojourn, I washed up on the cobblestone shores of Cambridge, Massachusetts, to do a PhD at Harvard.

The essay ends on the above sentence, leaving us to wonder about the moment she landed as if it happened so fast and unexpectedly, it’s impossible to explain in detail and as a result harder for us to understand how she achieved it or what it was like to leave those punk houses for the Ivy league. Part of me imagined the loneliness she must have felt when she washed up on those cobblestone shores, even if she chose this trajectory. But on further reading it also reveals how hard it is to articulate the choices we make in ways that don’t resort to cliches like “overcoming hardship” or success as the “underdog” or even the inevitability of choosing “safe options” as we grow up. Transitioning from living out of a suitcase to elite study is extreme and, in some ways, it would have been interesting to understand more about the onerous task of applying for a PhD at Harvard. The omission also falls into the Gen Z/ Millennial malaise that seems uncomfortable with status, choosing to downplay our achievements like they are meaningless. But I also liked the way she skims over the details as if the experience was akin to the types of drifting she had done previously, rather than a conscious decision to ‘better herself’ by pursuing an academic career. She obscures her success and while her decision to do this might be attached to guilt or imposter syndrome, I appreciated her slight indifference towards career progression. Decisions which she eventually reveals are about financial survival as much as anything else. She explains how:

If I could have seen that the path I stepped on would lead me here, would I have stepped off? I didn’t even know I was on a path. But every decision is a path, even decisions I made for the sake of survival, like going to grad school when I ran out of money.  

To lessen her achievements and the gains associated can feel disingenuous but captures how discombobulating and difficult it is to make career decisions and move into certain circles because we need money. And while the privilege is enormous, it’s normal to question how much we’ve compromised to reach the type of financial security that comes with success. Wang situates her choices and achievements as a form of financial security in Life Shit, originally published on Tumblr in 2014, she writes:

Now here I am. The immediate class ascension has been jarring – not that I’m making that much money, but I guess the Harvard brand is worth a lot in social capital. Now when people ask me what I do I don’t have to shrug and say, ‘You know … living the bullshit bohemian life.’ Have I been bought out? I hope not. 

I don’t want to default to a secure/comfortable life because it’s easier. I don’t want to be neutralized, either actively by Harvard or indirectly by my new material situation (which could shift my priorities).

Alien Daughters, often feels like it was written in the frantic moments between cleaning up broken glass, showing that Wang seems unlikely to be neutralized. Her priorities haven’t shifted. If she struggles to articulate how the Harvard brand happened, her uncertainty also shows a refusal to absorb into these institutions uncritically. Instead, it exposes life under capitalism – what other options exist, when you’ve run out of money.  But still, I remained intrigued by the presentation of these texts in the new format, worried that the strange and unruly writing (predominantly distributed as zines or on Tumblr) might lose their original intent and politics when re-packaged as a book. It’s an odd issue to raise, particularly when I never followed Wang with the type of devotion that leads some fans to uncover every piece of writing that an author has ever written. I missed that opportunity, yet started to crave the original format, in search of the essence of these pieces that might read or feel different outside of the book. 

The desire to experience her work as it was originally published was nostalgic and risked inflating the marginality of DIY practices as if there’s never been crossover between these scenes and mainstream publishing. But I remembered an essay by Kate Zambreno where she grieved the commercialisation of New York’s literary community when she moved there in 2013 – even though she was never part of the writing circles that she longed for. She writes, ‘I have been walking around looking for ghosts. Is it possible to mourn a city and time that I never knew?’ And I also questioned why I missed Wang’s original publications even though I never read them in their early self-printed form. A medium and distribution method which Wang describes in Alien Daughters passionately, which only increased my longing. 

I got a random email tonight from a stranger who said he read my zine in Alabama, of all places! I have no idea how it got there. Some traveller kids in Baltimore said they saw my zines all over the South and I didn’t believe them because I only print a few copies and give them to hardly anyone. The magic is hitting me hard. 

It is this magic, and the intimacy of these connections which I miss, craving those small interactions where it felt possible to reach out to a zine maker you admired after finding their work in a co-op and receive an appreciative email back. Connections that often disappear as writers professionalise and the pressure to promote yourself and what you’re doing next takes over everything else. But the magic of zine making lacks something too. I want friendship and inspiring exchanges but maybe I’m the only one and no one really has the desire or time to connect anymore when the objective is to win and opportunities to do are scarce. 

These misaligned longings became brutally obvious during a panel discussion with Michael Winkler on self-publishing for Writers Victoria. I had agreed to participate hoping to connect with audiences ready to “blow language up” – people committed to a medium that let you ‘shit and bleed all over white linens’ as Wang describes in Aesthetic Forms of Respect. Instead, what I got was a predominantly white boomer crowd eager to get as many tips as possible from Winkler, whose self-published novel Grimmish was later picked up by Puncher & Wattmann and successfully found its way onto the Miles Franklin shortlist. Trapped in a two-hour Zoom conversation, I hid the awkward realisation that I had expected a much younger group looking to challenge literary systems. But the writers I had anticipated were probably already publishing their first books, having found a place within the industry. And I humbly accepted that people weren’t interested in self-publishing because they wanted to avoid, as Wang described, ‘the interminable hum of the canon, the bullshit standards of certain literary white men.’ For many, self-publishing was just a different pathway to success and future book deals, another way to fast track their careers if other options hadn’t worked out.  

While I left the panel disappointed, I also wondered if I was overly invested in the binary between the underground and literary industry which missed the point. Because don’t all writers fantasize about making it in some way, seeing their work reach audiences beyond zine sub-cultures or social media niches? Kathy Acker, one of the figureheads of punk lit, made it abundantly clear that she was chasing fame by delving into the deranged crevices of her imagination, creating anti-narratives that repelled mainstream tastes while desperately seeking literary notoriety. In her 2017 book After Kathy Acker: A Literary Biography, Chris Kraus – a member of Acker’s alt lit circles and coincidentally Wang’s publisher, having established Semiotext(e) – closely examined Acker’s desire for fame. She writes that ‘Acker knew, in some sense, exactly what she was doing. To pretend otherwise is to discount the crazed courage and breadth of her work’.

Today, a huge range of successful authors have established themselves through non-traditional publishing platforms like zine making, blogs or social media. The cultural critic Mark Fisher developed his first influential book Capitalist Realism: Is There No Alternative? (2009) from his blog K-punk. To literary juggernauts like Melissa Border’s whose first commercial success was her essay collection So Sad Today (2016), a book which evolved from her Twitter/X account of the same name. It’s a pathway mapped out by so many cult figures that it could suggest that there isn’t really an underground or a margin to emerge from anymore, just a boundary between obscurity and recognition that most hope to cross.  Given this trajectory it’s not particularly unusual that a significant publishing house is interested in Wang’s DIY oeuvre consisting of Tumblr posts and out-of-print zines. Wang just seems more aware of the moment she crossed over, concerned by what she may have lost through the obvious gains. Or, as Zambreno writes:

But how to avoid feeling sold? Because I want to be successful, I want to be a success. What I would do sometimes for success, to not feel like failure all the time, but success, I think comes at a price, perhaps one’s integrity.

If I’m still over analysing whether a collection of DIY-published non-fiction withstands the rigor and ‘bullshit standards’ that often occurs in literary publishing I think it is because I am also seeking to understand how the two forms can borrow from each other, without undermining the other. Can writing from the outside (where many authors begin) move to the centre in ways that encourage new and hybrid styles, rather than assuming that the outside is just a temporary space that we work in until we are recognised in established industry contexts. Although Wang’s climb into the academy and literary elite risks compromise and change she confronts this openly rather than suggesting that she can perfectly blend the Harvard brand with her punk origins. She remains tapped into subcultures as her status rises as if the only way to manage the incongruities of each world is through hybrid overlap – while being honest that this coalescent is in itself a privilege and a loss. A scenario that forces the reader to question whether Alien Daughters would have been published without the Harvard brand and literary back catalogue. 

One of the most compelling essays in the collection Bitches of Color in a White Boy World: Innovative Others and Identity Aesthetics directly speaks to this and the possibility of moving between worlds without heavy reproach or self-criticism. Instead, it asks that we re-imagine DIY practices and commercial publishing as having potential for reciprocity rather than existing in opposition to one another. She argues that the more we critique industry structures that ignore us and feel impenetrable, the more we reinforce their power while indirectly undervaluing the work we do that remains on the outside. She writes:

You covet what you can’t have and so you devote your time to making those who do have power feel bad or guilty about having it. They’re never going to listen, and the closer you get to the centers of power you cannot access, the more infuriated you feel. And you pray that nobody notices that the underlying motivation for battling these people is the desire for a few crumbs of recognition, or, if you can’t get that, the desire to wreck their blithe and jolly rise to literary stardom (and perhaps to even make a career out of calling white people out).

Her sentiment articulates the problem with over identifying ourselves as outsiders to an industry that we think we hate or feel powerless too, wasting our time attacking it while we secretly hope it will offer us something over time. It is embarrassing to admit that such criticism is partially motivated by the chance of receiving some recognition for doing it – or worse still making ourselves feel better by ridiculing those who have made it. I’m attracted to the magic of the zine making community Wang speaks of and the urgent tone of writing created during her years of drifting. But I also recognize the danger of assuming that the original work is better than the book it eventually became, cautious of the type of mythmaking that worships the underdog and condemns those with status. I don’t want to write to call anyone out, particularly as those on the rise are less likely to be white anymore. The more I return to Alien Daughters the more I realise that I am looking for respect and reciprocity between the literary margins and the mainstream. 

Wang models a porosity that shifts boundaries, she uses the traditional publishing form to archive a radical practice and preserve work which is easily lost. She remains unsure of her success but embraces it with the same candour as her active Tumblr account now used to promote her acclaimed books and the juxtaposition fits. A post highlighting the sell-out Alien Daughters book launch, embodies the unease and gratitude fitting for someone critical of her new literary status. 

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Her post echoes the tone of many other writers I follow who promote their work and share their success with gratitude and ambivalence – the act of selling oneself being as essential as it is unpleasant. She’s an author who deserves a massive audience even if this required entry into an elite institution that doesn’t reflect her values.

If I still crave the edges, I’m also aware that I create work that pivots the industry. The last publication I made resembled an art book, was funded by an arts festival, and cost $30,000 to make. The last zine I made was difficult for Sticky Institute to stock because it looked too much like a book. I order publications from Rosa Press, Stolon Press, Common Room Editions, No More Poetry, Subbed In, Discipline and others because I can’t find books like Andrew Brooks’ Inferno or A Brief History of Australian Terror by Bobuq Sayed anywhere else. But I’m also interested in the overlap or the way such outfits draw from the aesthetics and content of prestigious publishers like Wang’s own Semiotext(e) / Intervention Series who published her first book. Wherever I fit within these binaries I’m increasingly conscious of stepping too far into critique which risks feeling resentful or as Wang attests, becoming known for calling people out while hoping to gain cred for doing it

Invariably some critique of institutional publishing is important, but Alien Daughters demonstrates the power of moving on, because as Wang describes:

The more you hate people for winning the game, the more you will believe in the game yourself.

Wang shows the possibilities that unfold when we let go of the game and allow ourselves to move between intuitional spaces while acknowledging the uncertainty that persists. In the essay Epistolary Review: Dodie Bellamy, the Buddhist she describes her relationship to Bellamy, a friend and writer she admires deeply who was primarily known as a blogger before moving into book publishing. Like my own experience of reading Alien Daughters she also questions what happens when you read a book that was originally published as a blog. She writes:

I think about how the BLOG became your space to go wild (perhaps because it’s not Real Writing, as you wrote). The blog format ended up giving the book a spontaneous quality—it’s immediate and has a real life temporal progression marked by shifts in emotion and fake-out endings. Even though I was following your blog in real time, reading the book was still special and a totally different experience.

And similarly, Wang shows us that books beginning in those ‘wild’ spaces can maintain their form, providing a different experience for readers that remains special. She is creating the type of writing that pulses with energy and freedom because it didn’t start out as a book and retains something unique even when it comes to you in this form. Wang wrote much of the collection on the outside of literature because she didn’t think she was the type of person who wrote books; and this is what excites me: watching her work cross a threshold into an industry and cultural landscape that is conservative but slightly more malleable with her there. The pathway remains complex and unclear, but her work shows that it might be possible to get that Harvard brand while channelling violence and make books without being completely neutralised. 

 (Note: I started working on this essay before the annihilation of writers and artists freedom to speak about the genocide in Gazza, the interconnectedness of other global events and growing fascism within this continent. While I still recognise the creative potential of moving between the margins and literary institutions; from a political and moral perspective it feels increasingly ethical to divest and forge news ways to share our work.) 


References

Madeline Howard, Jackie Wang’s New Book of Essays Is a Rich Excavation of Girlhood, Another magazine 2023
https://www.anothermag.com/design-living/15257/jackie-wang-alien-daughters-walk-into-the-sun-interview-semiotexte
Chris Kraus, After Kathy Acker: A Literary Biography, Penguin Press, 2018
Kate Zambreno, New York City Summer, 2013, in Screen Tests, Harper Collins, 2019

 
TIMMAH BALL is a writer, editor, and zine maker of Ballardong Noongar heritage. In 2021 she published the chapbook Do Planners Dream of Electric Trees?  through Glom Press/ Arts House and has featured in a range of anthologies such as This All Come Back Now (UQP) and Best of Australian Poems 2022 Australian Poetry.

Marion Kickett & John Kinsella

Marion Kickett is a Noongar woman from the Noongar nation and Balardong language group. She has family connections to Wongatha and Yamatji countries. Born in the wheatbelt town of York, Western Australia she spent her early life on the York reserve and commenced school from here. Although Marion has dedicated her career to the fields of health and education, she is passionate about writing poetry and stories of a lived experience as a Balardong Noongar woman.

 
John Kinsella is the author of over forty books, the latest being Ghost of Myself (UQP). His many awards include the Prime Minister’s Literary Award for Poetry, the Victorian Premier’s Literary Award for Poetry, the John Bray Poetry Award, the Judith Wright Calanthe Award for Poetry and the Western Australian Premier’s Book Award for Poetry (three times). His latest books are the three volumes of his collected poems, The Ascension of Sheep (UWAP, 2022), Harsh Hakea (UWAP, 2023) and Spirals (UWAP, 2024), and the story collection Beam of Light (Transit Lounge, 2024). He is a Fellow of Churchill College, Cambridge University, and Emeritus Professor of Literature and Environment at Curtin University, Western Australia. He lives on Ballardong Noongar land at ‘Jam Tree Gully’ in the Western Australian Wheatbelt. In 2007 he received the Christopher Brennan Award for lifetime achievement in poetry and in 2024 he was inducted into the Western Australian Writers Hall of Fame.

 

Walwayling

John:

This is a story if your people, Marion, a story that goes
to the core of being Ballardong Noongar in the shade and light
of the mountains, of being cradled in the valley where Bilya Googalar
shows the way to and from, where the herons gather and also walk and stalk
alone, where reflections glimmer with moments and observations
that stretch way back, so much further back than ‘settlement’.

Between the two mountains, Marion, I have always heard a conversation
I couldn’t translate, but I knew it in the shade and light, in the rush of birds
and along the trails of animals, I have seen it from the crest of Walwayling
looking across the valley to Wongborel, I have felt my body torn apart
by the damage done by those who would have their leisure
and economics over the sacredness of the mountain and its people.
This pain I have vicariously must be pain beyond pain for you,

This is a story of your people, Marion, a story that goes
to the core of being Ballardong Noongar in the shade and light
of the mountains, a story which is not mine to tell or even fully
understand, but I can listen and learn, I can hear the weather
of leaves and bark, the rush of storms over the granite,
I can listen and learn if you’re willing to tell, Marion.


Marion:

John my story is Ancient and so long ago. It’s hard to imagine that it was such a long time
ago.

It’s my dreaming not my dream time, but my dreaming is what it is. Because there is no
beginning and there is no end. It is continual please let it be said. It is yesterday, it’s today
and its tomorrow as well, it’s a time that we can learn from and borrow as well.

My dreaming is complex and may be hard for you to understand.

Just know that it is everything to do with this land. The birds, the trees and the vegetation
that grew, the animals, the waterways, the sun, and the moon. The stars that twinkle so
brightly above help tell our stories and our song lines that we love.

My ancestors made their home in the valley you speak of. A man and his wives their sons
and daughters too. With many young children who soon grew and grew. Together they all
worked hard to take care of this newfound land. Performing big ceremonies so they could
speak with the land. They spoke with the wind, fire, and dew. They informed the animals
and the bird life of just what they were going to do.

Together with the fire and the wind too, my ancestors began to burn the land this is true.
They dammed the water to make it work for them and cultivated the land growing
thousands of yams. They arranged wide open spaces to allow the kangaroos to graze and
left some bush thick, so the wallabies would stay.

My people were not just hunters and gathers John as most people think. They were the first
agriculturalist so think, think, think. Think about the journals of Dale and others and think
about their description of this land of ours. The land that you see today my ancestors
managed. They cultivated and refined the soil that is used today, to encourage the growth of
plants they ate yesterday.

Their practices of land management were repeated every year. They learnt from what they
did they knew where the animals hid. Yes, the animals were now where they wanted them
to be.

They grew the vegetation the animals liked knowing where it was but not out of sight. My
ancestors came to the valley as we know it and cultivated the land and then repeated it.
Over and over, they continued their practices. Developing their land and making use of it.


John:

Yes, Marion, I hear you, and I see and feel the evidence
of this in every step I take in the valley between the mountains.
I see this as I look back along the ‘timeline’, and look forward.
The failure of Dale and his ilk to understand what was happening
beneath their feet, to comprehend what they were looking at, to consider
the consequences of their ‘exploring’ and mapping. So many still
live in their imprint without understanding the footprint
of the land as spoken and lived by the land’s people
themselves. Or, they choose not to look, and to remake
in their own images. For settlers, the mountains were ‘lookouts’
for surveying, for capturing all they could see, claiming
as if they were the first ones, the only ones. These explorers
were the agents of dispossession, who would be used later
as the underwriters of that disgusting concept: ‘terra nullius’.

Yes, Marion, I hear you, and I see and feel the evidence
of this in every step I take in the valley between the mountains.
I can’t help but think that those who would use Waylaying
without respecting its people are much the same as Dale
and his ilk — wrecking the environment and not nurturing,
serving their own needs rather than the needs of the people.
It’s all selfishness and leisure and profiteering in ways
that goes against the speaking between people
and animals, between plants and animals and people.
Yes, time is different, but we all need to share understanding
of the nature of time and country and its people.
We near to hear your stories of the mountains
when — and where — you are willing to share,
and learn from them. We need to comprehend.

 

Marion:

Yes, John respect is not evident this is so clear. The felling of the trees their remains have all
disappeared. Destruction committed without fear as they smothered vegetation that was
near such terrible desecration made so clear. Practices on an ancient mountain such
individuals do not care.

But this is what I want to share, the stories of long ago let’s make that clear. Teach the
newcomers of the practices without any fear. Thousands of years caring for the land
thousands of years you must understand. So much destroyed I was in fear so much
destroyed I shed my tears as all was conducted within just one year.

This cannot be allowed such disrespect of my people the old and the young, yet it has
begun. Such people have begun destroying the environment for their own needs, yes, they
are defiant, defiant for their own needs. They are selfish and entitled which gets in the way,
of caring for country this I must say.

It’s their leisure and their pleasure that is what concerns them. Not my people the animals or
the plants which they can learn from. They have two ears not one but still they refuse to
succumb to the information given about the mountain and the land.

They say they have used this mountain so grand for over thirty years they have used this
land. I laugh in their face and think what a mistake cause they talk of over thirty years, but
this is no joke and yet they are stoked for their use of the land for over thirty years. I talk and
I talk, and I have talked for years but my words continue to fall on their deaf ears. I will
continue to fight and fight I will as there is much more to the mountains they are much more
than two hills.

So come with me John let us fight let us fight, we know there is more there is so much more
than just thirty years. We know the mountains both have been for thousands and thousands
of years. Let’s make this clear to one and all that our mountains mean more our mountains
mean so much more.

 

John:

As I struggled into sleep last night I fell into a state
that was neither awake nor asleep, neither dream nor memory.
I could see the mountain shaking and I climbed with you, Marion,
to investigate. It was a private music concert, a festival of ownership
sold to the crowd as a sharing, and there was not an elder
in the audience, and I was crying with you, Marion,
and you were crying with the mountain. An old-fashioned
colonialism still walks hand in hand with the new variety,
the new variety that tries to make it look smooth and ‘seeking permission’
on the surface, while behind the ‘scenery’ the old ways of dispossessing
flow like a streaming service. The pictures coming out of the darkness
dissolved and I was more awake than I’d ever been before.
Yes, let’s never give in, Marion, never. It’s your dreaming.
It’s complex. And not the dream-state
we all fall into trying to find a way
between waking and sleeping — your people
know country and know how to live with it,
how to sustain an agriculture and sharing.
Your knowledge unfolds through river and mountain,
goes into layers deeper than any plough
can overturn or even greedy miner can reach.
And I was awake in hope, Marion, hearing
the bats track out of the creases of Walwayling,
the mountain regaining its harmony.

 

 

Celebrating Culture, Community and Mentorship: Beveridge & Ling

A reading and conversation with Belle Ling and Judith Beveridge

August 18th, 2025
Better Read than Dead

 

I would like to pay my respects to the traditional owners, the Gadigal people, their elders past present and emerging. I thank them for their laws, their languages and their cultures and acknowledge that sovereignty was never ceded.

I would like to congratulate Belle on her debut full length collection, Nebulous Vertigo, and I would also like to thank her for entrusting me with this honour. A warm and glowing congratulations to Judy on being shortlisted in the Laurel prize for Tintinnabulum, an international prize for Nature poetry and for her listing in the ALS Gold Medal.

It’s truly a rare privilege to be introducing two gifted and highly esteemed poets whose work touches us with its technical craft and spiritual beauty. Belle Ling’s poetry inflects the complexities of culture, language, the displacement of diaspora, and most interestingly is a fusion of Western and Chinese philosophies through the subjects of food and eating rituals as well as relationships, between family members, community and between lovers. You will find in this book poems about ordinary things like miso soup, cod, tofu and beans. They delve into the nature of experience, fate and harmony. The auditory evocations are visceral; also delicate, layered, sometimes contrary, dialogic and polyphonic. In sharing these complexities and intensities, this flow of energy between subjects and objects, Ling’s poems circle mysteries, they become transcendent yet remain open and in living flux. Like the Tao, this is a poetry that emphasizes such virtues as effortless action, naturalness, simplicity. There’s a beautiful line in the poem “A Hinterland with Uncle Feng Shui’s Mirror”: ‘This is how fate mirrors: no territory’s owned but margins mirrored from trillion angles.’

Nebulous Vertigo engages both profoundly and deeply in a committed way with classical Chinese philosophy. Taoist teachings such as Laozi’s Tao Te Ching, Zhuangzi, and Feng Shui influence the poems. Undoubtedly, there are comparisons to collections such as Sarah Howe’s Loop of Jade and Eileen Chong’s Burning Rice. Ling has studied poetry at the University of Sydney and University of Queensland with Bronwyn Lea, and her work manifests the influences of Murakami, Pablo Neruda and popular cultural references like Cantopop and Cha Chaan Teng. The collection is intertextual, also in conversation with Sharon Olds, Wang Wei, Neruda and Borges. However, through her remarkable shape-shifting syntax and polyphonies attuned to discovery of an inner reality, there is never a shadow here of a derivative poetics. What I loved most was Ling’s wholly unique voice, daring to take the risks of ‘nebulous vertigo’, both grounded in task and ambitious in reach. The collection’s title simulates a synaesthetic effect of sight, image and movement which seem highly relevant and integral to Ling’s cross-cultural journey in languages: Cantonese, Mandarin, English, and the traditions and canons of poetic expression.

Her techne includes careful repetitions: ‘hurray, hurray,’ ‘squawks, squawks’; rhetorical elements and play:

what’s split
within me is a gastro-choke
                                 where the shock’s burped, and the storm
girdling the drowned whose asymmetrical body
                                                                               rowing, rowing—

In poems like “Let’s Go Back to Grass Flower Head” there is an exploration of semiotics and culture; a kinetic displacement between vernacular Cantonese, the more formal Mandarin, and English, between the graphic and the sonic. I found this so clever as it forced me to think about the process of learning a different alphabet, and even learning language more generically, as we all do in childhood. To consider the dominance of, and privilege afforded to the written form of English as a ‘universal’ signifier. In doing all this and being selected by Tupelo for its annual prize from a pool of international poets the book is a major achievement.

Judith Beveridge has mentored many CaLD poets over the years, including Belle Ling, Omar Sakr, Luke Fischer, Dimitra Harvey, Debbie Lim, Eileen Chong and myself, as well as many, many others. Her selfless support of emerging writers has helped our community enormously. Judith stands on the ground of a poetics that embraces allyship, mentorship and community.

In Tintinnabulum, Judith Beveridge’s seventh collection of poetry there is a re-engagement by the poet with the natural world’s acoustic dimensions, a celebration of nature as a part of our daily lives. The book is also a portal into surprising moments of beauty, the soundscapes are often baroque, technical and virtuosic (‘the wind slamdances in the trees or moshes the leaves into a wild circle’).

Indeed, the soundscapes of Beveridge’s poems are like Deleuzian folds where the baroque is not merely about ornamentation in representation but a replicating or a folding energy that stems from sensuous flows between subject and object, becoming an original and transcendent force.

Judy’s poetry has always been notable for its images and the originality of its similes, as well as a particular lexical flair. In Tintinnabulum this is evident again, in my reading in a new way where the lyric has been stretched and expanded into more narrative poems as well as poems that have adapted their engagement to new technologies. The inaudible and the invisible is imagined in magical ways: molecules, photons, particles and quarks resulting in a subtle tension between the unspoken, implied world and the represented, real or imagined one:

a bee
whirs giddy joy as its wings conduct a shakeout
of pollen in the bottlebrush, and I think about
the intoning, harmonising, buzzing and quavering
I can’t hear: the bonding of molecules, pairings
and transfers of particles, electrons and photons
speeding around the globe, quarks popping in
and out of existence, neutrinos zipping through
bodies, asteroids, planets, all the infrasonic
symphonies of the vast and vibrating invisible fields.

“Choirwood”

One of the things that I love about this book is way it returns without the slightest fatigue to previous subjects that the natural world permits: the animals, insects, blowholes, estuaries, weather, bays and harbour parks with different tonalities, so that there’s much pleasure and latent surprise in this subtlety-changed persona, altering her perspective and insights with maturity and age. This flux is a shift that a reader who may be familiar with Beveridge’s earlier books, will discern.

I also want to say that I found comfort in reading these poems that celebrated poetry’s transcendent and everyday music at a time when there has been a lot of noise in the social and artistic spaces often heavily infused with polemic, with official or institutional or media reportage, content and propaganda. The current sociopolitical context made these books very powerful for me since I have been myself questioning how we live through these times? What can be achieved for the better good through art?

What is silence, surveillance and censorship? How do we live with the truth of our lives witnessed as poets, as writers, as humans? These questions I ask myself remain unresolved as this poetry is, refusing to be cancelled, the poets insisting in gentle ways on what sustains us: the simplest of foods, beauty, compassion and on the journeys we take with our many tongues, our wits and our languages, vulnerably, together, to find our way through all this.

I would like to thank Belle Ling and Judith Beveridge for sharing their poetry with us this evening, and for allowing us to celebrate the value of community and mentorship for our cohort.

 

Michelle Cahill

 

 

Paris Rosemont reviews these memories require by Jacinta Le Plastrier

these memories require 

Jacinta Le Plastrier

Puncher & Wattmann

ISBN: 9781923099661

Reviewed by PARIS ROSEMONT
 

Jacinta Le Plastrier’s these memories require is a delicately woven poetry collection blending emotion and intellect whilst pressing on the bruises of trauma and memory. It traverses complex terrain, from lived experience to the ethically observed, through to remnants of the historical as well as collective ancestral memory. That’s a lot of suffering to pack into one collection. For the most part, Le Plastrier is adept at treading with just the right amount of balance, a tightrope walker poised on the edge of each carefully curated word. Control over craft is evident in the precision of expression in stark contrast to a sense of powerlessness careening through the traumatic subject-matter itself. The imagery displays dualities wedding beauty with brutality, forming ‘Scabs, hard as rubies’ (‘untitled (o,)’ p9). 

There is much that is left teasingly unsaid in this gripping collection. From the very title these memories require, pseudo-cliffhangers challenge the reader to ponder, to reflect, to fill in the blanks, to (attempt to) complete. As the mise en abyme of nested doorways within doorways on the cover suggests, this book asks as many questions as it answers. The unresolved give the poems a tension that propel the reader into digging curiously into the warren of intrigue and discovery.

notbirthhouse…in phantasm’s shadows. / and you are nearly / always like a child, / both within yourself, and yet / with your own gaze, / you are able / to watch you. / nightgown dressed, / you float, spectral / through its doors, / across thresholds…it was the house / that taught you / how to write.

(‘returnings’ pp2-3; original layout not retained)

There’s a sense of otherworldliness about this collection, grounded in both the real and surreal. 

i am not talking of the wall’s scream, how it screamed
        
so whitely,
… i wanted to climb
        
the rubble,

hold a single stone.
let its weight convince me,
        
my eye was a hand
(‘construction site’ p4)

The poems themselves are curious beasts, each ‘untitled’ accompanied by a qualifier in parentheses: ‘untitled (later)’, ‘untitled (perhaps)’, ‘untitled (i want)’, ‘untitled (did i)’, ‘untitled (ahoy)’. The brevity of these descriptions gives them a minimalist feel—enigmatic whilst drilling directly into the core of the text. There’s an almost childlike simplicity to these parenthetical (sub)titles—they’re direct, lacking pretension or waffle. This echoes recurring themes that thread their way like an umbilical cord throughout this collection: childhood and conversely, motherhood. 

Le Plastrier paints striking portraits of motherhood in its tender shades of complexity and nuance:

…each pregnancy entombed, an oxblood cave of dream, ribbed
by maternal drum, venal, aortal, pulse threaded to origin’s sorcery.
(‘quartet (for s.)’ p19)

From complicated labours:
born unbreathing blue
yanked you

to touch you
only through

glassy slits,
you gloved gravely

into incubator


to the witnessing of heart-wrenching loss later in the same poem:

  1. dies in the glasscot
    exactly next to you,
    her parents’ grief
    at 3 am, at the royal women’s hospital, total.
    (‘icu (for b.)’ pp15-16)

The poet does not spare the reader the gore of motherhood: ‘the surgeon. his hands at your skull / juggling the entrails / of all memory’ (‘neuroward2east (for a.b.)’ p21). Motherhood can be brutal business. Add to the mix the livewire of neurodivergence and the challenge of raising a child with special needs, and the complexities are compounded. From social judgement to a revolving door of medical appointments (‘the scour of years of speech pathology / by which you reformed your sounds’):

Who is getting it wrong?
you, dear first child
or the specialists helpful with their rules.
… i almost failed you,
almost let-in their slurs
which whispered–chronically,
underlit like radium your sleeping.
(‘quartet (for s.)’ pp17-18)

One poem proffers a disturbingly hacked doll where short, choppy lines mirror blunt butchery:

…you savage her
with scissors,
…break
both plastic arms;
abandon her
in the field
right next
to your home’
(‘untitled (dolls)’ p7)

It is not only the dolls that suffer. In the recounted memories, childhood is fraught with myriad hurts, which collectively form ‘The small frond of a scar from childhood’s kneecap’ (‘By which you mean,’ p10). But for all their growing pains, bittersweet is the inevitable shift beyond childhood:

…later,
the children will quieten,
and the clear silence culled
from the feet of their laughter
…dolls vagrant,
their clotted hair.
…unicorns…
exiled by reason
(‘untitled (later)’ p11)

these memories require is composed of two parts. The collection starts strong with powerful sparseness and visceral intimacy. There is a distinct shift in style and tone with the penultimate poem in this part—not one of the multiple ‘untitled’ pieces, but instead, the singular ‘unnamed’. The shorter, fragmented lines of the preceding poems give way to almost a dozen paragraphs of prose. It seems an unusual stylistic choice to have placed this particular poem on the Part I side of the divide. With the shift from the micro of the intensely personal to the macro of things more cosmic and universal, the lofty voice of the observer begins to veer into the histrionic. The words now float unmoored in another plane. Le Plastrier writes ‘your guide will appear, usually these are of celestial form’. There is talk of ‘an assassin assigned by the negative realms’ who may try to take us ‘far beyond this fortress’s limits’. The poem is littered with references to ‘the constellation of their unearthly blood’ and ‘half-mortal(s)’ that are apparently not ‘druidic’. The language employed feels anachronistic and alienating in its didactic grandeur:

so i wore a triple-horned crown, hewn from the sycamore tree we consider sacred…i buried a staff made of crystal, before we departed. in its symbols, inscribed, are embedded all the seed-lights of our future, the old skills we will need to remember. the geographic co-ordinates of its hidden site are related to the henge, the room, and the sycamore–tattooed into my earthly and lighter minds. would that I could trust any of you with this information?

(‘unnamed’ pp22-23)

This voice adopted creates an omnipotent ‘I’ (the writer) versus ‘you’ (the reader). Thus held at arm’s length, the reader feels a sense of disconnect. The bio at the back of the book reveals the poet has a personal interest in the supernatural. The swerve into this terrain makes more sense within this context. However, for readers who may not share this niche fascination, the phantasmal departure can feel estranging—particularly after the relatable human heartbeat of the poems preceding it.

Part II is more disjointed in style and theme than the first (not a criticism; merely an observation). Continuing with supernatural elements, there are poems featuring ‘witchly’ beings and ‘runes (that) do not lie’ (‘untitled (witchly)’ p28 and ‘untitled (did i)’ p31) and ekphrastic pieces engaging in poetic discourse with literary and philosophical giants including Lorca (‘untitled (recovery)’ pp32-33), Brecht (‘untitled (On)’ pp34-35), and Avery F. Gordon (‘untitled (pacing)’ pp50-51), the latter containing a quote longer than the poem itself. The footnotes leave no doubt the poet is widely read, has closely studied the source material, and does not invoke these predecessors lightly. 

Poems on current affairs include the devastating:

& across twenty-four hours

of newsprint
the platelets of children
will be sailing

on a Gazan beach.
(‘untitled (the earth lugs on)’ p36)

A couple of poems later, we reach vertically aligned prose poem ‘the storm’, decadently spread across two pages. This piece embraces the sumptuousness of language, each word carefully deployed. Interesting turns of phrase, charming images, and unique pairings within compound words delight: 

…Empire furniture huddled like gilded fowl…musselsoftness of a woman’s innermost rising…fossils small as postage-stamps…upon my cheek I can feel their bloodwarmth…just beyond the windoworiel, powdering the wordkeep…the ding of fancy cars fishtailing, their dollardrum inhabitants…straightasadie ribbons of light…the storm’s settled its wager of rain and cloudedbright…

(‘the storm’ pp 40-41)

A stylistic rupture confronts us in the frenetic stream-of-consciousness piece that follows, where the poet confesses:

all i want to do
tonight, is to be too fucked up
        
this poem’s getting all smashed up

(‘untitled (ahoy)’ p42)

The latter quarter of this collection explores poetry of witness. The reader is taken into unsettling territory charting abuse, madness, and destructiveness of various kinds, where desperate coping mechanisms themselves become a form of self-abuse. 

‘Catalogue’ (pp47-49) is starkly powerful. A blackout poem chilling in the sparseness of text. It is a twenty-one-word poem spanning three whole pages comprised largely of ominous slabs of visually striking redactions. The naked vulnerability of what remains is made even more gut-wrenching juxtaposed with the guesswork behind what has been obscured.

The final poems in Le Plastrier’s collection return once again to childhood. From the ‘numinous hours…at the foot of your child bed’ (‘untitled (nascent)’ p54) to ‘a child / without questions’ (‘in the sea’s’ p55). The closing poem gently gives the reader permission to ‘go backwards / with all your hours’ (‘untitled (long)’ p56), a purging of sorts of the preceding violence. We return to the safety and comfort of the womb—on a physiological, psychological, and mother-earth level. It is welcome relief and a soft landing after the volatile ride through motherhood, brutality, philosophy, and the corporeal. these memories require is a viscerally wrought collection crafted with great skill and care, showcasing the bruising gradients of life through personal and collective memory. Yet for all the horrors both experienced and witnessed, there’s a pervading sense of beauty and hope. As Le Plastrier writes in ‘untitled (the earth lugs on)’ (p36): ‘we revolve / on the delicate ankles of love’.

 

PARIS ROSEMONT is a multi-award-winning Thai Australian poet, performer, educator, and author of Banana Girl (2023) and Barefoot Poetess (2025). Her books have received awards and accolades in Australia, Greece, UK and USA. Paris’s poetry has been published in a plethora of literary journals and anthologies including Australian Poetry Journal, FemAsia Magazine, Rabbit, Splinter, and Verge. She was the winner of the Matthew Rocca Poetry Prize 2025 (Verandah Literary Journal; an initiative of Deakin University), First Prize in the Hammond House Publishing Origins Poetry Prize 2023 (UK), received a Best of the Net 2025 nomination from Sky Island Journal, and was awarded Honourable Mention in the Fish Poetry Prize 2025 (Top 10 in the world, as selected by judge Billy Collins). She has judged for the Western Australian Premier’s Book Awards 2025 and Sydney Fringe Festival 2024. Paris is a member of the Randwick City Council Arts & Cultural Advisory Committee, Guest Editor for Written Off Literary Journal, and sits on the Hunter Writers’ Centre Board. She may be found at www.parisrosemont.com

Alison Stoddart reviews Salsa in the Suburbs by Alejandra Martinez

Salsa in the Suburbs

by Alejandra Martinez

ISBN 9781923099630

Puncher and Wattmann

Reviewed by ALISON STODDART


Immigration has always been a topic on the Australian socio-political agenda.  A talking point that affects all members of our multicultural society and can be heard everywhere, from offices to cafes, gyms to hairdressers. There is no doubt that it is currently on the agenda again, brought to the foreground by Pauline Hanson’s divisive antics in parliament and the rise of anti-immigration rallies.  One unfortunate aspect of this debate is the simplistic way it has come to be presented in the media. Going some way to revealing the cultural nuance that permeates every aspect of the immigration process,
Salsa in the Suburbs is the story of Juan, a Uruguayan who brought his wife and three young daughters to Australia in the 1970’s to escape a military dictatorship. 

The novel is set in the suburbs of Western Sydney, a setting that immediately places the theme of migration and multiculturalism at the centre of the story. And enticingly, the topic of an older generation entering the dating world sets up a storyline that is both tender and humorous.

Juan is a recently bereaved widower in his seventies, in mourning and relying on his daughters, who all reflect varying ties to their heritage. His middle daughter Lola is married to Leo, a fellow Uruguayan and together they have two boys.  It is Lola who takes on the role of carer and protector of Juan and the one who clings most to her Uruguayan roots. A trained scientist who opts out to work in a supermarket, she struggles with mental illness and finds it hard to reconcile the life she has to the one she envisioned for herself.

Her older sister Betty, an ex-nurse, has turned her back on the burden of her family and has chosen to take her Australian husband and three Australian-born children to live an alternate life in Mullumbimby, making soaps and candles and experimenting with herbal medicine. She is living in alignment with her values, or so she thinks, but Betty has the conundrum of knowing that her heritage is running through her veins when she discovers that her grandmother too, was a healer.

The third daughter Malena is a thinly drawn character who has fled the Australia embraced by the rest of her family and lives in Italy with her Italian husband. Does she perhaps question her place in the land where her parents chose to settle, and is her fleeing to Italy a way of settling the dissonance in her mind of having to choose between her cultural heritage and her upbringing? 

The novel is divided by chapters utilising the narrative technique of internal focalisation whereby a chapter is narrated by a single character. The chapters are prefaced by poetry (Juan), journal entries (Lola) and soap recipes (Betty). These become clues to each character’s state of mind and nicely segue into the actual narrative. We are privy to Lola’s scribbling in her diary, reflecting her increasingly erratic state of mine, and Betty’s distancing from the world around her by entering into the soothing world of soap and yoga. Betty eases the tension of attending the funeral of a beloved aunt by making Lemon Balm soap, but we only know this from the recipe at the start of the chapter.

Juan, the patriarch of the family, is a complex character. He knows all the words to Carlos Gardel songs, a composer, singer and prominent figure in the history of tango. It is unsure if Juan reveres Carlos Gardel because he was a fellow exile, with Gardel being born in France – but unable to return took on the nationality of Uruguay, or because he simply loved the music of Tango that Gardel composed and sang.  Probably a mix of both.

Missing his beloved wife Carmen, he nevertheless cannot help comparing her unwillingness to assimilate into Australian society with his own embracing of life in Australia. Carmen never felt at home in Australia and always looked to the future when she and Juan could return to their ‘real’ home. Whereas Juan recognises the opportunities that Australia lays at his children’s feet and the fact that they would never ‘go home’ with him and Carmen. He muses upon this very aspect. “For Carmen the pull of her roots had been stronger than the pull of her children. Not for me, I wanted to be closer to my daughters” (page 105). 

Juan is devoted to family but finds it hard to assimilate the changing role of men in society. He loves his three daughters but it’s his first-born grandchild, a boy, whom he dotes on.  Juan has a streak of culturally inherited misogyny, and his respect is kept for the men in his family, his grandsons and his sons-in-law, particularly the blue-collar one.  His son-in-law Chris who built his own house “brick by brick” is clearly admired over and above Malena’s husband, a university educated lawyer with multiple degrees.  “He doesn’t need to fix anything”, contemplates Juan to himself when thinking about his daughter’s husbands. “He pays tradesmen to do it”.

It is Juan who retains the romance and innocence of his youth.  Aging as he is, he never loses his belief in love and remains open to it in any form.  Whether from his beloved labrador Coco or from an ad placed in the newspaper searching for a lady “to share conversations and outings with” (page 1). 

Juan’s story takes a right hand turn when, without the help of the newspaper advertisement, he meets a widowed aboriginal woman at his local park when they are both walking their dogs. Their clashing of cultures is not much subtly highlighted but glaringly obvious with the woman’s attempt at understanding Juan’s pronunciation of his name. “Hooarn” she finally manages after mimicking his accent.

Ultimately though this is the most complex character in Salsa. Her name is Frances, and Juan is initially repelled by her, but comes to understand her and in turn, to love her. Upon first meeting Frances, Juan thinks she is crazy. “You are very rude, the woman tells me. I’m not rude, you are a stupid woman that cannot control her little dog” (page 57).

Martinez brings aspects of intersectionality to the novel through Frances and creates a relationship between her and Juan that is believable and deeply touching. Although their growing love affair puts a strain on the family as the family reassess all that they know about cultural belonging and generational change. 

Given the deeply troubled history of political representation, national recognition, the contexts of incarceration rates and more, it is difficult to write an Indigenous character without inflicting settler-colonial assumptions. Martinez brushes lightly over her story. The novel could explore the immigrant and Indigenous persons’ relationship as a way forward, based on a deeper understanding of the violence of dispossession. If an author is going to bring up these themes in 2025, they must handle them in culturally safe and appropriate ways. Frances’ story of her mother being part of the stolen generation is simplistically touched on and feels like a mere gesture. Other references to Indigenous culture and activism, such as the Freedom Ride of 1965, are fleetingly mentioned. There is minimal engagement on the theme of Aboriginal dispossession. It does, therefore, feel like this character is tokenising the Aboriginal presence, the author using Frances’ heritage merely to explain the unity that springs up between her and Juan, both being from violent and unsettled nations. 

Martinez writes in a straightforward way.  She engages in a lot of dialogue which mostly feels authentic but every now and then the tone of her characters shift.  There is a discrepancy between Juan’s inner monologue and his spoken word, which can be jarring. 

The novel is ripe with rituals of food, traditions and family. Spanish words like the South American herbal coffee equivalent ‘mate’ and social gatherings, ‘asado’s’ pepper the narrative.

Salsa in the Suburbs is the story of a migrant journey on unceded and unsettled land. It explores the collective confusion that the children of these migrants feel as they straddle two cultures. It is an exploration of immigration and all its inherent obstacles encountered by migrant people, including the internalised racism that simmers beneath benign white Australian of the 1970’s. 

An overarching theme of the novel raises the questions of where does a person feel most at home?  Is it in their culture or in their geographical location?  Where does one get a sense of place? It is also a story that explores the experience of exile and migration across time with the interesting alternative perspective from another culture, one that is over 60,000 years old and displaced in its own land. It covers a myriad of themes that include mental health, ageing and identity.

Martinez is a Blue Mountains, New South Wales based writer who migrated to Australia at the age of seven to escape political turmoil in Uruguay. She was the winner of the 2022 Newcastle Writers Festival Fresh Ink Emerging Writer Prize, which went on to be developed into this novel. She has produced a sweetly told story of a migrant family, ultimately an Australian family and what that entails. It is an engaging example of inclusive fiction with diverse character representations.
 
ALISON STODART is a country born and bred, Sydney writer who holds a Master’s degree at Macquarie University in Creative Writing. X @a_hatz5

Natalie Damjanovich-Napoleon reviews Joss: A History by Grace Yee

Joss: A History

Grace Yee

Giramondo

ISBN:9781923106314

Reviewed by NATALIE DAMJANOVICH-NAPOLEON

 

Grace Yee’s Joss: A History challenges contemporary poetry readers with the unspoken premise ‘How far can we deconstruct history to examine and understand it?’ Yee’s Joss takes up the mantle of a documentary poet (docu-poet) such as Pasiley Rekdal, who in West: A Translation scrutinises the legacy of Chinese labour in the American West that helped construct the great railroads, using and responding to historical documents and traces of Chinese culture. In
Joss, Yee reviews the impact of Chinese workers in the goldfields of Victoria, New South Wales and Aotearoa inspired by the unmarked and segregated graves of over a thousand ‘Chinamen’ she discovered scattered across White Hills Cemetery in Bendigo. Yee uses the tools of documentary poetry throughout Joss which Jospeh Harrington writes traverses and crosses boundaries “in the sense that it decreases the distance between writing history and poetry, while experimenting with the received forms of both.” This new collection builds upon Yee’s work in the triple award-winning Chinese Fish yet differs in the ways it interrogates and re-narrativises history and Chinese settler experiences through docu-poetry techniques. Somewhat more fragmented and ambitious in scope, as Yee writes, “They sutured these documents”, the poet employs fragmented, pastiched lines and surrealist techniques to highlight the unique experiences of Chinese settlers, the absurdity of racial discrimination and how the struggles and cultural nuances of migrant minorities in Australia are ultimately subsumed, fragmented and erased by the White Australia narrative.

A ‘joss’ is a physical statue in Chinese deity worship. In Chinese tradition the statue is not viewed as a simple representation of the deity but contains the actual spirit of the deity, which serves as an apt metaphor for Yee’s collection. These poems are not representations of Chinese people across the goldfields, rather an attempt to embody the spirit of these ancestors within each poem. In a poem such as “best quality vegetables” Yee utilises the finest properties of her work, with a bio-poem that uplifts her ironically named character “bound feet lily flower” while also leaning into her critique of Australian culture: “we don’t go / to the theatre, dance halls or picture shows, because this is / the time of the larrikins and my life is a silent feature film.”  The word “larrikin” is ironically repeated throughout the collection. From a term that originally meant “hoodlum,” larrikin has evolved into an affectionate “Ocker” term that bears interrogation, for one era’s or group’s larrikin is another’s murderer. As Yee explicates in the prose poem that combines several assaults and the failures of the justice system into one poem, “Playful Bodily Harm,” with the “Death Result of Unmistakeable Larrikin Assault on any Chinaman.” The evocative “my father was not a gardener” asks the reader to see the Chinese gardener as greater than the role he inhabits of immigrant labourer, and rather as someone who “rode out to orion’s belt in his sherlock hat” yet lived a life of quiet tolerance as “every night he out-walked the doughnut boys fuckin’ asians out.” These contrasts typify the moments in the poems in Joss, fragments of beauty are abutted against corrosive encounters of racism to jarring effect. 

However, at times the narrative within the poems in Joss moves between the past and present in dizzying ways that may leave the reader unsure of where the narrative “I” sits, in the past or the present. While this shift in time works in a poem such as “chinoiserie,” in other poems like “Alluvial Mining” the shifts leave the reader confused as to the logical leaps and connections being made between the past and the present. The poems where narrative disjunction works to full effect are evidenced in the three erasures in the collection, “the march,” “the history of botany bay” and “the work” which utilise the satirical qualities of erasure to critique articles from the Bulletin’s “Anti-Chinamen Special of 1888” as

foreigners

                                                                                 surrender to
                                                                                                                                                                  everlasting
                              white                                planet                              history

Here Yee is asking us to both face and acknowledge this overt racism that was entrenched by the White Australia Policy and Australian culture. In “longest imperial dragon” the poet points her lens directly at this policy and its effects that ripple out today, “paw paw 婆婆 said, the way through / the immigration restriction act is through the prime minister’s / stomach after the second world war Chinese restaurants / became gwei lo 鬼佬 palatable.” [page 4] The latter poem is an example of the successful rendering of Yee’s surrealist mash-up techniques where enjambment is used to full contrastive effect with, for example, “prime minister’s” scraping against the unexpected “stomach” that opens the following line.

When Yee allows her work to lean into its documentary poetry qualities the poems shine and speak for themselves. The list poem, “2.8km west of Ballarat Bird World,” that recounts the state of the graves of Chinese miners is poignant and touching, as is “Non-European Ancestry” that recounts the names of “Chinese born Australians Who Enlisted in World War 2.” This is where documentary poetry excels, in bringing unknown history to the fore with poetic techniques. Of this style “(heffernan lane)” (with an accompanying archival photograph of women in traditional dress) is a standout poem that combine’s Yee’s skills for bringing history to life in prose poetry while making social commentary, acknowledging the poverty and cultural erasure experienced by a people with a rich history, where she wonders “how do we daughters of middle kingdom – world famous for self-effacement – begin to deconstruct the status quo of colonialist, anthropological government?”

In the last poem of the collection, “This story” Yee writes, “Dysphasia is an inability to arrange words in the proper order due to pressure from a central lesion (thieves looters slavers omniscient narrators).”  With such a prescient line that could have set the tone for the collection it may have been prudent for the poet to place “This story” at the opening of Joss. This would have allowed readers the opportunity to embrace this fragmented style of poetry structure and time shifts within the poems from the outset. While ultimately readers may find Joss a more difficult read than Chinese Fish, the scope of Joss casts a wider net.

Even though Yee may have not hit the mark with every poem in this collection, as a whole Joss succeeds in opening up the reader’s mind to seeing how the Chinese miners whose lives she examines, and their ancestors today spend their time “building tolerance for life’s implacably white horizons.” As historian Anna Clark explains, in the past “the nation’s collective memory was nudged by persistent noise generated outside the formal discipline” of history and will continue to be by important works of docu-poetry such as Grace Yee’s Joss.

 

References

Clark, A. (2022). Making Australian history: Vintage Books.

Harrington, J. (2011). Docupoetry and archive desire. Jacket2. https://jacket2.org/article/docupoetry-and-archive-desire\

Anna Merlo reviews Hailstones Fell Without Rain by Natalia Figueroa Barroso

Hailstones Fell Without Rain

by Natalia Figueroa Barroso

University of Queensland Press

ISBN: 9780702268816

Reviewed by ANNA MERLO

 

Hailstones Fell Without Rain is a complex story of culture, immigration, sacrifice and, above all else, love. Natalia Figueroa Barroso’s debut novel takes a tri-partite form, with a brief interlude, following the lives of Grachu, Chula and Rita. All three Ferreira women are part of the Uruguayan diaspora, scattered across time and place, but united by the strength of the women in their bloodline. 

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Chinua Ezenwa-Ohaeto

Chinua Ezenwa-Ohaeto lives in Lincoln, Nebraska. He won the 2018 Castello di Duino Poesia Prize, Italy, and the 2022 Special ANMIG poetry prize, organized by the Centro Giovanni e Poesia di Truiggio, Italy. In 2023, he was a runner-up in the Sparks Poetry Competition, Memorial University, Canada and in the African and African-American Studies Program Contest hosted by UNL’s Institute for Ethnic Studies. He is the author of The Naming (Nebraska Press, 2025). His works have appeared in Joyland, Poetry Ireland Review, Oxford Poetry, Massachusetts Review, and The Republic.

 

 

Remembrance

I arrived Lincoln, Nebraska, with three bags:
one full of clothes, one full of food items
and one full of books and documents.
In my pocket, the language of the wind was absent.

One evening, I was on a stroll and so
followed the train tracks westward.
I met a man down the track,
who on seeing me, halted. I halted too.
He smoked the evening into elation.
You must be African, he said to me.
How did you know? I asked.
There’s something about you guys.
And I said to him in a slow calmness
and curiosity, I am Nigerian.
He smiled and hurried away. 

By a coffee shop, down this city,
a man sold used clothes.
All neatly hanged on a set-up structure.
The sun spread wide its hands, covering
everything it could with its fingers.
There were no children playing on the sides.
A woman, whose eyes looked tired, braided her
daughter’s hair on the front yard.
On passing by, I gifted them a smile and a nod,
but got nothing back, just busy fingers
swimming through a forest of hair. 

I lived in Lincoln long enough to
understand the gaps in every crossing.
I lived in Lincoln, and in my Lincoln
apartment’s kitchen, everything in there was Nigerian.

Every night, in my bed, I thought about the seas.
I thought about the owls, whose eyes
were dry stone, and hooted of dreams.
I thought about falcons rising from their nests.
I thought about my wife and her
lovely hair, blue scarf and smell.
I thought about my mother, and the wrinkles
appearing by the passing months on her skin.
I thought about my brothers and sister,
each one full of seals and gold fishes.
I thought about my brother’s and sister’s
children, younglings of smiles and better years.
I thought about what lies ahead of me,
it’s unsureness, wildness and stumbling
blocks. I thought about every mouth burning red
until sleep swayed me into her arms. 

 

Stephanie Westwood

Stephanie is a Naarm-based writer and film producer, interested in speculative fiction that pokes at the intersections between love, disability, and queerness, and laughs at political doom. She has been published in Splinter Journal, The Suburban Review, Overland, and in various zines scattered around cities and the internet.

 

 

 


LUNA SEA

The city was a cemetery, gravestone skyscrapers stained against a burnt orange sky. As I stepped off the watertram, I could see the first few pinpricks of space; Venus, probably, or Jupiter, untwinkling. I rarely looked up back in those days; so much more time was spent watching what was unravelling below. 

An eboat hummed up to the platform, police lights flashing a blue-red disco. Aboard it, my escort in uniform had the vacant blue eyes and sharp jawline of a high school cricket captain. 

“Demi?” He asked, and I nodded. I climbed aboard and we began to circle back, cutting a glassy swathe through the little peaks of current. Laughter of revellers in the warm summer night drifted over from the pontoon bars that lifted and dropped with the tides. 

He studied me.

“Marine biologist, huh?” He said. “Every kid’s dream, to swim with dolphins for work!”

People always said that. I wanted to explain there was very few dolphins in my line of work, and so many more humans than you think. The impact of them. The shape of their cities. The push and pull of them and their ships and their drills. Fishing nets and oil spills and populations and temperatures. 

But as usual I smiled thinly and said nothing.

As we passed the old Palais – the glimmering lettering and art deco flanks still visible – the sounds of crowds died. After the third floating tequila bar got swept away, the council finally deemed it too rough and developers were forced to keep everything behind the new Barkly St boundary they enforced. Luna Sea got an exception, because of its heritage listing, and the updates they’d done to make all access aquatic only.

My brother had called me earlier in the day. I was in the lab, alone, as usual. Slices of coral beneath the microscopes. I always found the shapes endlessly fascinating, even more so than the bubbling fungus-like calcifications they could form. Magnified by one thousand, the subtle galaxies and craters of their surface revealed, a secret world opening like a breath. 

When my phone buzzed I lurched for it, my heart tightening in hopeful terror – perhaps it was Kath. But it was him. I ignored the call. He rang again, immediately. He never did that. Maybe Mum is dead, I thought. 

But no. He wanted help. Another first.

The spires of Luna Sea gleamed in the dark. I remembered as a child seeing the eyes of a white-faced monster here, but that was long gone. Now there was just a golden crown and a water gate, which the boat purred through at the nod of a couple more cops up on the security platform. At a bobbing stretch of pier that ringed the floating arcade, I dismounted alone and Cricket Captain Cop departed. 

Jackson was waiting for me. Even while being held upright by his stiff uniform, even with the air of gravitas that came with being the Chief Commissioner, he still looked at me with the same pained expression of deep annoyance that I’d known my entire life. I hadn’t even done anything wrong yet. 

“I didn’t want to invite you.” He said as a way of greeting. “This is a waste of time.” 

“Good to see you too.” I snarked back. He lifted police tape that cordoned off the dark arcade and gestured for me to follow him. 

“I’ve run out of ideas. I wanted you to come by while the media were gone.”

We walked between dark lifeless machines – claws suspended over soft toys, old shoot-em-ups reskinned in whatever newest franchise was out now, a Dance Dance Revolution platform with arrows gone cold. Jackson stopped between two silent air hockey tables.

“Give me your phone.” He said.

“What? Why?”

“No photos. Can’t risk it. The Greens will be brigading in two seconds if they find out. Give me your damn phone.”

He snatched it from my offered hand, then used it to gesture ahead. 

I pushed through the small gate and stepped onto the dodgem car rink. A single work light was set up illuminating the middle. The cars were scattered and still. In their midst, one much larger shape. 

I approached cautiously. Its skin was grey and mottled. Beady sunken eyes stared glassily from one end of the almost shapeless body. Many giant paddled fins splayed out on the ground. It was almost melting into the rink, like a blobfish torn from the depths, a jellyfish puddled on the sand when it was made for water. 

I pulled my pocket torch from my bag and studied it. Just as I didn’t swim with dolphins, I hadn’t specialised in any vertebrates since early bio. Though looking at the creature, I found myself wondering if it even had a spine. It didn’t have a dorsal fin. It had an odd number of pelvic fins – if you could classify it as that without knowing where was pelvic. 

I looked into the strange beady eyes; black, but were they moving? I reached out to touch the skin; a thick coat of mucus, and under it a layer both pebbled and smooth, denticles. Like rays, or a shark, or   

NO RUIN BACK (back)

I jolted away as though burned. Something had echoed in my head. Feelings that were not words nor images but simply things that I knew, vaguely, like grasping a concept in a dream, knowledge I had and could not focus on. Reverberating.

My fingertips were burning – my skin had turned lobster red and started to peel.

I returned to Jackson, furiously cleaning my hands with a hanky. 

“This thing needs to get into a lab. I think it’s poisonous, mucus seems to agitate- Where did it come from?”

“What is it?” 

“I don’t know.”

“What do you mean, you don’t know? This is your entire thing-

He would never say job. Just like Mum. Cop, that was a job they understood. Plumber. Teacher, maybe, when I was lecturing they understood. But biologist that lived off research grants? 

“You don’t listen, do you? This is not my thing, actually. Call me when you’ve got a problem with coral or algae bloom or, I don’t know, simbiotic bacterial-”

“Shut up. Demi? Shut up.” Jackson pinched the bridge of his nose, the adult in the room, and of course I was the child again. Easily baited. God, this dynamic bored me.

We stood in the dark arcade. 

I reached out and picked up a plastic gun, pointed it at him. Click. 

“Remember when I used to slaughter you in Time Crisis?”

“I need to dump it back in the ocean.” Jackson sighed. “If this gets out, if this gets reported – some endangered whale thing beached here – Luna Sea will be shut down for good and the enviro perimeter will be widened. They’re already fighting like mad for it. This would be the nail in the coffin.”

“Okay? Good.” I shrugged. “But also, this isn’t just some endangered whale thing. It’s something else. It needs to go to a lab.”

“I thought this wasn’t your thing.”

“It’s not my thing enough to tell you what it is, but I know what it isn’t.”

He looked back at me. Then held out my phone.

“So whose thing is this?”

Kath looked so damn cool gliding up on the police boat. I’d felt like some clumsy kid on a makeshift raft on school camp. For all my work, I was extremely unsteady on water.

She walked towards us warily. We hadn’t spoken since that awkward lunch, a month ago. She had been crying. She begged me to explain how I was feeling. I had found no words. I’d felt something click off. That was the end of that.

Kath nodded at me.

“Where is it?”

She had her torch too. She had given me a matching one. Said I needed to stop using my phone every time I needed more light in the lab. Now I watched, always mildly impressed, by how quick she worked, how her eyes darted in patterns indecipherable to me, processing facts I had to really strain to find.

“You’re right. No spine. Or…” She scanned the humped body, two knobbled lines apparent. “Two spines? But that’s not possible. More likely this must be rib edges. But it’s so strange.” 

NOT STRANGE YOU STRANGE (strange) 

That powerful echo again, so intense I staggered.

“It’s not strange, we’re strange.” I said, almost involuntarily. Kath ignored me, squatting closer, eyes aglow. She was loving this. I felt my heart pounding as Kath muttered to herself about eye shape, teeth forms.

“Did you not feel that?” I pushed. Kath just looked at me, widened her eyes in a patronizing what? 

DON’T SHUT UP

I had to stop talking. I was not meant to share this. Don’t. Shut up. I looked past Kath at the swollen black eyes.

“I think it’s still alive.” I said. 

“I’m calling the university.” Kath said. 

“Don’t. Jackson – he doesn’t want anyone to know.”

“So? Since when do you listen to him? You know this is important. You know we can’t just sit here.”

I felt her glare on me, hot, caustic. So close to repeating a fight we’d already had. I always just sat there, I never acted, never wanted to move forward. Yada yada yada.

But this was an action. A bizarre action. For a deep sea creature that wanted me to take action.

“Please, Kath. Just trust me.”

She stared at me. 

“We need to tell people.”

A familiar feeling, her walking away, me witholding a truth that I couldn’t articulate.

I sat in the dark, staring at the black eyes. Was this communication a form of echolocation; something with brainwaves? I was out of my depth. Trying to put it into terms I understood. The thing had no melon for direction, no apparantly space for a brain to hold language.

“Your bloody girlfriend emailed the university. And the Department of Environment.” Jackson’s voice startled me.

“Ex-girlfriend.” I corrected mildly. I found I missed her most when she was doing something defiant. Doing what was right. She was always better at that than me.

“By morning this place will be swarming with cameras. Let’s get the hell out of here.”

“I’ll stay.”

“What?” He obviously didn’t want to come closer but he did to catch my eye.

“I just want to keep – observing. Before they take it to the lab.”

Jackson’s concerned gaze darted from me to the creature. 

“Suit yourself, Dem. The boat’s leaving.”

He walked across the rink.

“Did it speak to you?” I called out. Jackson froze in his tracks. Then he picked up the pace. Refusing to look back. Refusing to answer.

 

Just me and it. Was it a link to a mosasaurus, something prehistoric? Had it been living so deep for years that we’d never caught sight of it? I tried to imagine, in cold black gloom, a family of them, a pod, swimming. What shape was it supposed to be, when not beached on a dodgem car rink? 

How did you did it get here?

FELL (fell)

It fell here. I saw the image of the crash. I looked up.

A jagged hole torn in the roof of the arcade. 

Fell from where?

FELL HOME (home)

It fell from home. I couldn’t see that, it looked like nothing, but it felt safe, and warm, and liquid, and familiar, and comforting. 

Where is home?

    ?????

Confusion was clear. That question didn’t make sense. Home was home. For a brief second I thought the expression in my mind was the same as Jackson’s – exasperated, tired. Demi doesn’t understand again.

I’m trying. I’m trying to understand. How to picture trying to understand? 

Nothing.

Two spines, perhaps. A different evolutionary thread. Elements of deep sea and reef life. Both cartilaginous and not. No gill slits. Physically possible in a different biome. With millions of years of different atmospheres. I looked up again. 

Why did you come here?

LEARN YOU WEB (web)

To learn. It wanted to see the webs we formed. I saw it clear as day, clear as a reef system where coral and algae grew codependent and vibrant. Varieties of humans, symbiotic, toxic.

REPORT (report) 

Somewhere, other creatures were listening. They saw me and Kath not speaking. They saw Jackson not looking at me. They gathered like a confused crowd around a plastic gun in an arcade, turned over the significance of a gifted lab torch in their minds. 

Can you go back?

NO MISCALCULATED MEANT SEA (sea)

Oh. It was aiming for water. The old theme park on the edge of the ocean caught it by surprise. 

Do you have much time left?

?????????

Again, that face, confusion, exasperation. Maybe the concept of life remaining, of time altogether. I didn’t know what it was that didn’t translate.

HOW MATE (mate)

It was curious about Kath and I. How we came to be, how we were. I didn’t know how to explain that we weren’t. 

We met as research assistants. She cared so much. She was so quick. So firey. She put so much of what I felt into words. I felt like every moment with her I was learning, expanding, growing. I stored every word of hers, selfish, hoarding. She got nothing back. She got hungry. She left.

I tried to recall the moments in the lab, the late nights. How she tasted of saltwater and open nights. Laughing until our guts hurt in the stacks at the library. Her arms, long and wide, over my arms, over the giant coral on the Great Barrier Reef, the first and last time we dove together. Pressing into the formation. I tried to summon images where I’d never had words and feed them like kindling into the motionless creature. One after the other after the other.

I lay down, pressed on cheek to the cool wet rink. Stared into the melting grey face of elsewhere.

What else do you want to know?

Its images grew weaker. It struggled to share observations with me. The feelings were paler, drifting. By the time the sky began to turn steely milk white and haze yellow with dawn, there were no more messages. 

I lay in the silence. The boats would come. The media. The government officials. Everyone in protection of something; wildlife, environment, jobs, this amusement park staying heritage-listed and standing forever, more construction in Victoria, space exploration, renewable energy. The university would fight for priority in the research. The government would get in the way. The money would be hard to find. Kath would be at the forefront. Her observations would go viral in an op ed when the grants all got stonewalled. We would learn something. And maybe they would, too.

Before all that noise began, I relished the quiet. I practiced what I would say to Kath. How would I get images into her brain like that? I had no idea. 

I’m sorry. (sorry)

 

Reha Mohammad

Reha Mohammad was born in Afghanistan and grew up in Ghor, where he finished his schooling. He graduated as Bachelor of Arts in Dari/Farsi Literature and Humanities at Herat University. In Kabul, he taught Farsi literature in private schools and contributed essays to Hasht e Subh and other national print media. He came to Australia in late 2019. He holds a Bachelor of Arts from the University of Sydney completing a semester on exchange at New York University. He commences an Honours candidature in Philosophy next year. Reha’s academic interests sit at the intersection of political philosophy, citizenship, ethics, international literature, and cross-cultural studies. He continues to write occasionally for national and international outlets, mostly on migration, identity, and social issues. Reha has been active in student mentorship and partnership programs on campus. He volunteers off campus at community cultural events and with human rights organisations. These experiences shape his writing and academic direction, and he remains committed to work that bridges communities, ideas, and lived realities.

 


The Girl on the Bridge

The bridge stretched like a pale scar over the Hari River, the only narrow line joining the two halves of Firozkoh city, the capital of Ghor. Below it, the water moved sluggishly between dry banks dusted with rubbish, while above it the August sun hammered everything into the same dull colour of ash and clay.

Every morning, while the first call to prayer was still fading in the air, a small girl came and took her place in the middle of the bridge. She always sat in the same spot, near enough to the road that people couldn’t help noticing her, but just far enough from the rail so the mud from Flancoaches minibuses, Toyota Townaces, taxis, Kamaz trucks, lorries, motorbikes, and the usual stream of Rangers and government vehicles were all passing through wouldn’t reach her. She would sit cross-legged, sometimes barefoot, sometimes with her feet tucked beneath the edge of her chadar, which was once purple but had long since lost its brightness.

She had a small aluminum bowl in front of her. At her side lay a bundle wrapped in plastic: a torn blanket, an old scarf, and a few things that could not be called belongings but were hers all the same. Inside the bundle was her pillow -an oversized pocket stuffed with pieces of cloth and paper- and a red coloured comb and a mirror the size of her palm, round and grey around the edges, cracked like dry land. She often took the mirror out, looked at her face, fixed the scarf over her head, rubbed away the dust from her cheeks, and smiled faintly, as if reminding herself that her face was still her own, fresh and beautiful.

No one knew where she went when night came. Some guessed she slept under the bridge with the other roofless people, others thought she hid near the police checkpoint. But the city did not care to know. Firozkoh, although a small city, had dozens like her melted into the corners of streets at dusk and reappeared in daylight as if conjured by habit alone.

Even the shadows looked worn out. From the northern side of the bridge, you could see the main provincial buildings: the governor’s compound, with the black-red-green national flag raised above it, the police headquarters, and, a little to the side, the Human Rights office with its faded blue sign. The mosque’s blue dome and tall minarets also stood out among it all. The month was Asad, the hottest month. And on the other side of the bridge, the replica of the Jām Minaret rose above everything, its head in the sky seeming to watch the whole city.

And of course, quite a few huge billboards along the two sides of the bridge, ending from Karzai, Abdulla, and National Urdu, very huge, fancy, and shiny, overcrowded with slogans from election campaigns. With vegetable sellers, fruit carts, and small mobile street stalls scattered in every direction.

That day, around noon, a cargo rickshaw -which couldn’t be seen very often in the city- stopped not far from the girl. The driver was a tall man in his forties, his shirt damp with sweat and the colour of road dust. His name was Dost Ali. He had been driving this same machine for years, ever since his release from prison. Others knew him as a quiet man who spoke little, always respectful to policemen, never took too many passengers, and even sometimes refused fare from poor people.

He was loading staff on his rickshaw from his customer on the bridge to carry them to the destination when something caught his eye. Behind the girl, on the metal fence where people sometimes taped up lost posters and martyr pictures, a photograph fluttered in the wind; a soldier’s face, smiling faintly, his name written beneath in red: Shahid Reza Dehqan.

The driver froze. He stared at the name, then at the girl. The same wide eyes, the same cheekbones. A memory pressed against his chest. He turned off the engine, climbed out, and walked slowly toward her.

“Little one,” he said, stopping near her bowl, “where are your parents?”

She looked up with wide, cautious eyes. “I have no one,” she said softly.

He lowered himself to one knee, pretending to adjust his shoe. “What is your father’s name?”

“Reza,” she said, almost whispering. “Reza Dehqan.”

The driver’s heart clenched. It is him. He remembered that name from his own village. A young farmer, a peasant working for his landlord, who had fallen in love with the Mir’s daughter and had run away with her to escape her family’s anger. The Mir had cursed them both before the mullah, swearing that no peace would ever touch them. The story was circulating in the village.

The driver stood slowly. “And your mother?”

“Laila,” the girl said.

He nodded, fighting the weight that had settled on his shoulders. It had been many years since he heard those names, but the story had never left his mind. His own brother had died during a long-lasting feud in their village- shot one night in the Hussainia while sleeping, a victim of old family hatred. Dost Ali, the murdered brother, had been blamed, arrested, and imprisoned for years until finally released under zamanat, a kind of local insurance. Since then, the government had hired him to work days at the hospital cleaning floors, and on Thursdays and Fridays, he drove the rickshaw to feed his family, a wife and three kids.

He looked at the girl again, her bowl, her small hands. “You’re Reza’s daughter, aren’t you?”

She hesitated, then nodded. “Nasrin,” she murmured. 

“Nasrin,” he said softly, testing the name, and when she looked surprised, he smiled bitterly. “Yes, you were just born in that year when I left my village.”

Nasrin blinked. “You knew my father?”

“Yes. He was a good man, a man of heart.” He sighed. “I wronged many in my youth, but your father was never one of them. I knew it from his personality. I’ve done towba now.” He looked around. “But what are you doing here alone, my daughter? This place isn’t safe. There are eyes everywhere; some human, some not. You’re growing up. Things will be different now. You know what I am saying.”

She looked away toward the river, perhaps pretending not to understand.

“This bridge is the city’s front gate,” he continued. “The police are there, the Provincial Office is just there, you can see the fancy building -indicating with his hand-, and across the road is the Human Rights Office. Yet even with all this, a person like you can vanish here, and no one would notice. Allah forgive us.” He shook his head. “Yet, unfortunately, I can’t do anything right now. I must find a way, though,” he speaks worriedly. “Next Friday, I’ll come again. I must find you a safe place, maybe with my daughter. Her name’s Gulsha; she’s your age. You’ll be happy to meet her.”

He stood up. “Now eat something, and don’t stay here too late.”

She nodded, lowering her eyes.

He returned to his rickshaw, but as he started the engine, the sound of her small voice reached him. “Uncle,” she called.

“Yes, Bachim?”

“My father- do people still remember him? Do others know him?”

Dost Ali turned his head and looked at her, then at the fluttering photograph on the fence. “Your father died proudly, my child,” he said. “He fought those who darken the name of this land. But the government…” He exhaled. “The government counts every killed hero as a number, nothing more. Don’t expect them to remember.”

“What about your brothers? I forgot their name. What were their name?!” Then he touched his forehead, struggling to recall the names. “They should be big boys now, ha?”

“Sultan and Jafar?” Nasrin said this with a little more confidence and excitement, but when Dost Ali continued asking about where they were, the confidence instantly vanished from her face.

She shook her head. “No. When father was killed, they both went away. Sultan first.”

He leaned closer. “Tell me.”

Nasrin spoke with the even tone of someone repeating something many times to herself. “My mom told me, and I barely remember that when that big explosion happened on the TV -in Kabul, many people were killed- Father cried. Mother said she had never seen him cry before. He cursed the Taliban. He said if men keep quiet, devils will own the country. That night he told Mother he would go to the army. She begged him not to. But he went.”

She rubbed her thumb along the mirror’s crack. “He served two years. One night they were attacked in Char Sada. Seven soldiers died. People said their commander had a deal with the Taliban. They sold them, Uncle.”

Her voice thinned. Dost Ali put his hand gently on her shoulder. “Don’t cry, Bachim. Your father died with honour. A soldier’s blood should build the country.” He looked away. “But this country drinks the blood and stays thirsty. Politicians … the first betrayers.”

Nasrin nodded as if she already understood what betrayal was. “After Father died, Sultan said he must go to Iran to work. He promised to send money.”

“Did he go?”

“Yes. He called once. He told Mother that the smugglers had taken them to the Pakistan border to some madrasa. The mullahs wanted to train them as suicide bombers. He escaped in the first days.”

Dost Ali’s eyebrows rose. “Escaped? By himself?”

She nodded. “He said God helped him. He crossed the desert at night and, after several weeks, reached Iran. After that, he called his mother from time to time.”

“Okay, do you have any number from him?”

“I had at the village, not with me”

“We need to find the contact Bachim. We will fix things slowly, Bachim, don’t worry. God is merciful!”

“I remember your fathers and mothers’ original place was called Karizak, which is kilometers away from Khakdan, very far…”

“It is very far from here, too.”

“Okay, and your mother?”

“She was heavy with another baby that winter. The roads were closed by snow. When the time came, no one could take her to the clinic. She bled … a lot.” Nasrin’s voice faltered. “She died before the baby was born.”

“Your mother died from giving birth, is not the first one in that village, Bachim.”

He continued: “The hell land. The brutal destiny. Oh god! May Allah be kind to you,” The driver exhaled. The wind pressed hot against his back. “And Jafar, your younger brother?”

She opened the bundle beside her and pulled out a folded piece of paper. “He left this for me.”

Dost Ali unfolded it carefully. The handwriting was uneven but clear. 

Salam, my little cute sister Nasrin Jan.

For saying goodbye, before I leave Khakdan, yesterday, early morning, I went to our parents’ graves. I cried a lot, but I also told them everything. I promised Mother I would take care of you, so I must go to Iran to work, earn money, and send it to you.

Don’t cry. When I reach Sultan, we will send money for your school. Don’t fight with the villagers; you are alone. Obey Amiruddin’s family while you stay with them. I’ll come back, or I’ll take you to Iran. Iran is better. We’ll have our own house there.
Khuda hafiz. Take care, my Nazanin sister.

By the last lines, the letters were slanted, rushed. Dost Ali’s eyes blurred; he pressed the paper to his knee and said nothing.

“So you don’t know where he is now?” he asked finally.

“No. Some people in the village said … the Taliban took him. Maybe to madrasa too.”

The driver folded the letter and handed it back. “Keep it safe, Bachim. Words are all that remain when people go missing.”

He stood, brushed the dust from his knees. “I have to work now. My customer will be angry with me. But next week, I’ll come again. I’ll take you to my little daughter, Gulsha. She’ll be happy to meet you.” He repeated the same phrasing.

Nasrin smiled faintly and tucked the letter into her bundle.

Just before the rickshaw’s engine drowned his voice, he said, “Bachim, may God save this country. No one cares about the truth anymore. Politicians don’t care about the country, and people don’t care about much at all. There’s no hope left for my generation. If anything changes one day, it’ll be because of children like you.”

She lifted her hand slightly- something between a wave and a prayer.

He drove away, the bridge shrinking behind him, its dust lifting into the hard white heat of Asad.

*

Friday came back dry and bright. A thin layer of dust hung in the air, the kind that settles everywhere when there hasn’t been any wind for a few days. After Juma prayer at the mosque near the old bazaar, Dost Ali stepped out with the other men, adjusting their turbans and felt that brief, quiet ease that sometimes follows prayer; a feeling that usually disappears as soon as the street noise starts up again. He was about to head toward the bridge and start up his rickshaw when a strange feeling caught him, something he couldn’t name, but strong enough to make him stop for a moment.

The sound reached him first; an uneven hum, a gathering of voices that did not rise in prayer or trade. The closer he walked, the more the road thickened with people. Near the middle of the bridge, a crowd had formed, blocking half the lane. Two or three Ranger pickups were parked along the sides of the bridge. From here, two policemen could be seen standing by the railings, and behind them, the police commander’s Land Cruiser stood tilted to one side, with one wheel up on the curb. He had been thinking of the girl all week- her thin wrists, her small voice, the way she looked toward the river when she spoke. He had promised her another visit, maybe to bring new shoes or a scarf. She had thought she might visit and play with his daughter this week. He had not expected to find her surrounded by strangers and silence in such a situation.

At first, he thought someone had fainted in the heat. Then he saw the sheet on the ground, its edge lifted by the wind. A policeman bent and pressed it down with his boot. Near the hem lay a red comb tangled with hair, and beside it the small aluminum bowl he remembered.

Dost Ali stopped. A man beside him whispered, “A girl- killed last night. They say she was one of the beggars.”

“Who did it?”

The man shrugged. “Who knows? She was found near the trash bin at dawn.”

“Actually, the city council cleaners had found her body in the bin. Can’t you see those orange coloured guys there, standing scared and speechless?” the other man pointed out.

A young man with a camera took three photographs, each with the same sound: click, click, click. The sound felt obscene in the heat.

Dost Ali could not move closer. The sheet was white, the dust was yellow, and between them the river glinted faintly as if pretending nothing had changed. Someone lifted the edge of the cloth to check; someone else shouted not to. The word tajasos -forbidden curiosity- passed through the crowd and quieted it. 

“Don’t look at the girl. It is a big sin,” someone said from the crowd.

The sweeper, an old man with a grey beard, wiped his face with his sleeve. “She had just recently come here,” he said to no one in particular. “Such a nice and polite girl.” He looked at the ground as if expecting her greeting again.

A few minutes later, the ambulance from the clinic came. Two men lifted the body and carried it to the back. The knot they tied in the sheet looked deliberate, final. The door closed. The noise of the crowd softened. People began to drift away, some to lunch, some to the bazaar, some simply to forget.

The police asked those who stood too close to move away, then spoke quietly among themselves. One of them pointed toward Dost Ali.

“You said you knew her?” 

“Yes,” he answered. “Her father was Reza Dehqan. He was a soldier.”

They wrote his name and told him to come with them. The rest of the crowd already looked elsewhere; the bridge had returned to its noise.

Inside the Provincial Office of Security, the air smelled of sweat and old paper. A fan turned above them, pushing warm air in circles. A clerk gestured toward a metal chair.
“Sit, driver. Tell us how you knew the girl.”

“I met her last Friday,” Dost Ali said. “She was sitting on the bridge. Behind her, there was a picture of her father, Reza Dehqan. I recognized it. We were from the same village, Khakdan. Her parents fled from their own region. I was still in the village when they moved to our village.”

The commander looked up from his notes. “Explain that.”

“Reza was a peasant, worked the Mir’s land. The Mir’s daughter, Laila, fell in love with him. Her family had refused his proposal and swore they would kill them both. That’s why they had escaped their village, and after days they had reached our village.

The clerk nodded for him to continue.

“Reza joined the army later. The girl told me the Taliban attacked his camp in Char Sada. They say the commander sold them to the enemy.” The clerk looked bizarre but said nothing. “He and seven men were killed that night. His wife died the next winter during childbirth. One son, Sultan, went to Iran. Another, Jafar, left after her death and was never heard from. People say he might have been taken by the Taliban for training.”

The commander leaned back. “So no family left here to claim the body?”

“No, sir. Only that girl.”

“Do you wish to pursue the case?”

Dost Ali hesitated. “Sir, I have no time, no money, no relatives in the government. I am only a driver. But if you can find who did it, please do, for God’s sake, and for this innocent blood. Otherwise, I do not want trouble.”

The commander nodded toward the clerk. “Write that down. Exactly.”

When the form was complete, the commander signed it without reading. “You can go now. We may call you again.”

“Yes, sir,” Dost Ali said. He rose, bent his head politely, and stepped into the corridor.

Outside, the sun was still burning. He walked back toward the bridge. The city had already washed away the blood. Water ran down the curb into the river, carrying dust and small scraps of paper. He stopped by the railing, looked at the fence where Reza’s photograph still fluttered, and touched it lightly.

“You waited for your daughter,” he murmured. “And now she’s with you.”

He turned to leave, but before starting the rickshaw, he laid a piece of bread on the stone where her bowl had been. Then he drove away slowly through the crowded street, past the billboards, past the mosque, past the same buildings that had seen everything too late.

Above him, the sky of Asad blazed, and the river below kept moving- quiet, indifferent, carrying the city’s dust out of sight.
 
Notes

Asad- a summer month in the Afghan calendar.
Reza Dehqan- Afghan male name; Dehqan means farmer.
Hussainia- a Shia religious gathering place/local mosque
Zamanat- a local form of bail or guarantee.
Towba- repentance; asking god for forgiveness.
Karizak- the name of a village (fictional)
Khakdan- the name of another village/area (fictional)
Tajasos- spying, eavesdropping, or improper curiosity.

 

Jill Jones

Jill Jones’ most recent book is How To Emerge (Vagabond Press, 2025). Her previous book, Acrobat Music: New & Selected Poems, was short-listed for the 2024 John Bray Poetry Prize, long-listed for the 2024 ALS Gold Medal and commended in the 2023 Wesley Michel Wright Prize. Her work has been widely published in most of the leading literary periodicals in Australia as well as in a number of print and online magazines in New Zealand, Canada, the USA, Britain, Czechia, France and India.

 

 

 

Questions of Air

What chorus blows up the night
Whose chromosome still sings to me

When will the refusals slow down
What card is more lucky than one

Who is the survivor, first or last out of the room
What isn’t worth the forgiveness

When did the words begin falling apart
What weather lets me out in rickety mornings

When did the sun make its nest in my ribs
Why is the sky almost naked

What hand drew this poor heart on a wall
Why have all the leaves left