Isabel Howard reviews Cannon by Lee Lai
Lee Lai
ISBN 9781923106406
Reviewed by ISABEL HOWARD
The first thing I noticed when I received Lee Lai’s Cannon, slipping it out of its envelope in my quiet living room, was how heavy it was. A large, squarish slab, I imagined it could cause some serious damage if it landed on my toes. Or squish a large cockroach, if I had nothing else at hand.
Sitting on the couch, I was around twenty pages in when I noticed something strange. There was a weight resting in my body, not unlike the book itself: dense, ungainly, with hard edges that feel awkward in a human hand. It made me want to curve my body inward, or hold my breath, like I was preparing myself for some kind of onslaught. So, I closed the book. I got up and did things I’m supposed to do. Empty the dishwasher. Fold the laundry. As I moved around, the feeling shrank. But it didn’t disappear.
The life of the titular character, Cannon (known by her family as Lucy) is the focus of Lai’s graphic novel. In the very first scene, before we even reach the title page, she stands in a restaurant, surrounded by broken furniture, shattered crockery and spilled condiments. She’s struck with panic as she takes in the scene, but before abandoning it, she smashes one last plate.
Rewinding to three months earlier, the novel starts again with a portrait of Cannon’s day-to-day. She’s a Chinese-Canadian, queer young woman who takes care of her ageing gung-gung (grandfather) and works as a chef. She watches horror films with her best friend, Trish, and she runs regularly to a podcast that tells her to ‘release tension’ and ‘breathe’. Her peers refer to her as ‘stoic’ and ‘reliable,’ and her expressions are flat and devoid of emotion, but as the story progresses, we learn that Cannon’s calmness is on a precipice. Magpies gather around her, which no one else can see. Her work goes unappreciated, her hurts go unacknowledged, and she begins having panic attacks as her composure falls away. When her friendship with Trish is about to breakdown and her boss makes a pass at her, she cannot take anymore. Her anger overflows, and she trashes the restaurant in a violent episode where the pages are flooded with red. Afterwards, she slowly begins to rebuild, having learned what pushed her over the edge.
Lai’s graphic novel is preoccupied with responsibility and rage. Until Cannon’s breakdown, her efforts to be dutiful and unflappable are relentless. She cleans for her gung-gung while her mother ignores her texts. She cooks for Trish, who secretly uses Cannon for creative inspiration. She tries to keep the peace at work while avoiding her lecherous boss, and when her co-worker describes Cannon’s care for her gung-gung as ‘wholesome’, Cannon responds with ‘I just have to do it’. Despite the clear frustration in Cannon’s silences and facial expressions, she acts sensibly and responsibly, refusing to acknowledge pain, accept praise, or ask for help, even when her feet begin blistering, and her doctor asks, ‘my goodness, what have you been doing to yourself?’ But acting in accordance with what other people want and stymieing her own feelings are what build her anger to the point of violence. Trish pinpoints this right before Cannon breaks down in the restaurant:
‘It’s not my problem that you’ve sidelined all of your twenties to deal with other people’s shit. There’s no virtue in being so solitary and self-effacing and resentful, you know.’
Cannon asks questions about how we fulfil our obligations to our family and friends, how we address our own wellbeing, and whether we must sacrifice either. These questions are likely to show up in every life, but their significance in Cannon’s echoes what some describe as ‘the eldest daughter’ experience, where daughters, particularly those in Asian families, feel pressure to take on caretaking and emotional responsibilities from a young age (Chau, Vadakumchery).
Upon reaching Trish’s words above, I realised these questions were also, in fact, the source of my own discomfort. Having grown up in an Asian immigrant family, these pressures are disturbingly familiar: should I prioritise my personal needs, or the needs of my loved ones? Should I express my own hurt, even if it risks destroying a relationship? Lai does not delve into an examination of how gender, race or sexuality may factor into these questions, but the uneasiness I felt shows just how effectively she brings them to life.
Riding the wave of her anger, a slightly different Cannon emerges after the trashing of the restaurant. She tells Trish to delete the writing about her, breaks off a confusing relationship with her co-worker, and insists on a response from her mother. After over two-hundred pages of compliance, her confrontations are satisfying to watch, and in response, her friends and loved ones shift toward her rather than away: several coworkers cover up her wrecking of the restaurant, her mother starts engaging with her gung-gung, and Trish takes care of Cannon’s meals. This shift paints anger as a tool for catharsis and communicating one’s needs, rather than one for inflicting damage, or cutting people and responsibilities ‘out’. Even Trish’s response to hearing about the magpies, which have always appeared when Cannon feels overwhelmed, reiterates the idea of rage as helpful: ‘They’re probably just looking out for you.’
In a final scene, Cannon receives the news that her gung-gung has died in hospital. At this point, I wondered if his death would be framed as some kind of ‘freedom’ for Cannon: his care is potentially the most onerous of her responsibilities, which are already in quick decline. However, after hanging up the phone, she sits alone and cries, surrounded again by magpies. At the end of a novel that largely presents Cannon’s efforts as challenging and unappreciated, her grief complicates the idea that care becomes a burden when it is unreciprocated.
I have not read many graphic novels, but Lai’s skill with the form is obvious even to me. The writing is almost exclusively dialogue, and her illustrations are deceptively simple: black and white, with minimal shading on soft, curved faces and bodies. Wordless panels, both close-up and wide, evoke lonely silence and unease, while moments of fury are punctuated with swathes of red. Throughout, Lai skilfully shows how Cannon’s relationships transform, often via conversations that feel innocuous until the characters’ expressions and quiet reactions are revealed. Additionally, Cannon’s racial and queer identity is acknowledged on the page without interrogation, making for a sincere, refreshing representation of realities we often do not see in fiction.
Rather than an escape, Cannon is a painfully and earnestly realistic graphic novel. It explores Cannon’s struggles with her commitments, her restrained anger, her fraying friendships, and ageing family, and her emotions are so vivid that I could feel her anxiety spiralling across each panel. It centres Cannon’s perspective as a queer, second-generation Chinese woman with a level of honesty that feels rare, but every experience and character is so fleshed out that the novel’s strength becomes its ability to show life’s tenderness and cruelty, and the mundane parts in-between. For that reason, I think there is much more that could be said about Cannon besides the things that struck me hardest. But now that I know what Lai’s capable of, I look forward to reading her past work, and anything she releases in the future.
References
Chau, Shannon. ‘The curse of the (eldest) Asian daughter.’ The Oxford Student, 20 January 2024. www.oxfordstudent.com/2024/01/20/the-curse-of-the-eldest-asian-daughter.
Vadakumchery, Tracy. ‘Is It Eldest Daughter Syndrome, Or Is It Something Else?’ The Bad Indian Therapist, 29 October 2025. thebadindiantherapist.com/indian-therapist-blog/south-asian-eldest-daughter-syndrome.
ISABEL HOWARD is a Filipino Australian writer based in Nipaluna / Hobart. Her work has previously been published by Mascara Literary Review, Contemporary Art Tasmania’s Journal, kindling & sage, and more. Having completed her Honours in creative writing at the University of Tasmania, she is currently working towards completing a young adult fiction novel.








































